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9/04/2007 12:48 PM ET | Filed under: Baby Blabber • Headline of the Week • Australiastic • Nicole Kidman

"Nicole Kidman: I lost Tom's baby when I was 23"

Such a shame! CLICK HERE to read about the Australian actress' two miscarriages.

Nicole Kidman: I lost Tom's baby when I was 23

Nicole Kidman has revealed how she lost a baby early in her marriage to Tom Cruise.

The miscarriage, which she has never spoken about before, happened when she was 23.

But she was so desperate for a child that she and Cruise decided to adopt less than two years later.

Kidman makes the revelation in an interview with Vanity Fair magazine, in which she also admits she has wanted a child of her own since she was 17.

Revealing: Nicole Kidman (photographed exclusively for Vanity Fair by Patrick Demarchelier) in the October issue of Vanity Fair, out on Friday, in which says she yearns to have a baby

Now 40 and married to country music star Keith Urban, she adds: “I'm yearning to have one. I think I would be very sad if I wasn't able to have a baby. Keith knows I want one, and he has been getting there slowly.”

Kidman has previously revealed that she discovered she was pregnant by Cruise after he filed for divorce in 2001 - but miscarried weeks later.

The couple had been plagued with rumours about their love life and possible reasons why they had not conceived. They adopted daughter Bella, now 14, and Connor, 12.

Kidman says: “From the minute Tom and I were married, I wanted to have babies. And we lost a baby early on, so that was really very traumatic. And that's when it came that we would adopt Bella.

"There's a complicated background to that, given that I never speak much about many things. One day maybe that story will be told.”

She adds: “My mother has an adopted sister, so it's been part of our family, and I knew it would probably play out somewhere in mine. I didn't think it would happen so early, but it did.”

The star also reveals she became engaged to someone else between the split from Cruise and meeting Urban - fuelling speculation that the man may have been U.S. tycoon Steve Bing or pop star Lenny Kravitz, both of whom she dated.

She says: “I got engaged to somebody … but it just wasn't right. I wasn't ready. We weren't ready.”

She admits she was “lonely” when she met Urban and tells of being alone after winning her best actress Oscar for The Hours.

“You're in a hotel and you're like, 'Okay, well, I'm sitting in this big suite with an Oscar and I still don't have a life - what is wrong with me? Who do I jump on the bed with, and celebrate with, and order pancakes with?' That was painful, not having that person to share it with.”

Of Urban, 39, she adds: “I would probably say that two very lonely people managed to meet at a time when they could open themselves to each other. We were a mixture of frightened and brave.”

Kidman insists they have come through the trauma of Urban's alcohol and drugs addiction. He entered rehab four months after their wedding last year.

She says: “We were in a very, very, very bad, painful place and have managed to step through it.”

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WTF says – reply to this

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1st
Morgan says – reply to this

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i love nicole!!! she is better without tom anyway
sad says – reply to this

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very sad..
Dawn says – reply to this

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now we know why Tom moved on….shame!!!
Christianna says – reply to this

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first…
v says – reply to this

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ooo
Jordan says – reply to this

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HOT!
RP says – reply to this

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man, thor must hate her.
Rachel says – reply to this

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FIRST…..or is almost?!!!
K says – reply to this

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That's so sad…but I'm glad she's able to get through all of it
kristina420 says – reply to this

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I'm first
julie says – reply to this

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firssst
Michelle says – reply to this

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What a sad tale. I'm glad things are getting better for her and Keith. I hope some day she can have the child she craves. Question: Why does Tom have the kids most of the time? Scientology to blame?
Heylo says – reply to this

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Christina Aguilera? IS that you?

And who the hell talks about miscarriages with a sailor suit on?
Aussie says – reply to this

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Yawn…
akoi says – reply to this

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sorta sad to read. Tom's an asshole
Jen says – reply to this

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I'd like to believe all of this. She is a brave woman..don't you think?!
Shell says – reply to this

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she's ace!
love her
LOVE!!
Suzy says – reply to this

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aww! that is sad.
Ms. WV says – reply to this

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She should be glad she's not married to Tom anymore…he's a freak. I'm waiting for the book.
Ahhh.. says – reply to this

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first biotches!!!!!!!!!!!!!
douch bigalow says – reply to this

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sucks for her
Ashley says – reply to this

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Ewwww
aquabitch says – reply to this

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Something's wrong with her…2 miscarriages?
Liz says – reply to this

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Aw, I feel bad for her. Still don't believe Tom got her pregnant though.
fren says – reply to this

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FIRST
Michael says – reply to this

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Ugh! Why does she even bother w/ photoshoots. She's so plastic, they could just construct her image entirely on Photoshop and no one would know the difference.

Her new movie's coming up, so naturally it's time to reveal a bunch of shit in hopes to get us to buy a ticket to her movie. I won't fall for it though, she's so cold and empty, she frightens me away from her movies.
killmenow says – reply to this

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she should be doing backflips in excitement that she didn't give birth to one of those little alien babies that his sperm creates, his closeted sperm probably destroyed her vagina
Euge from says – reply to this

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She is BRAVE
Jamie says – reply to this

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Tom moved on because he didn't want to have to pay her alimony for the rest of his life.
aShLeY says – reply to this

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Sad..Glad she is able to talk about it now.. Hopefully one day she will be able to have a child.
Gemma says – reply to this

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thats so sad, at least she's happy with her hubby and kids but hopefully in the future sh'll be even more happier with a concieved child x
Brit Brit says – reply to this

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Yawn!!
Why bring it up now that Tom's a father??
Why Nicole, Why, why????
Maryann says – reply to this

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Just proves what we knew all along….Tom's a DICK !
killmenow says – reply to this

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hey is Castro still dead?
Mac says – reply to this

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Tom Cruise should NOT be allowed to multiply.

The world is crazy enough without a bunch of little scientologists running around.
Peace says – reply to this

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How tragic. I feel for you Nicole. May you find peace.
She Lying says – reply to this

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Tom is paying her to lie…We all know Tom is infertile. His X wife Mimi Rogers had talked about it…and why do you think Nicole and him adopted? She may of had a miscarriage…and that sucks. But the second miscarriage was because she cheated on him. We all know Suri is not his kid!! She is just being loyal to Tom for the kids sake.
Lala Bush says – reply to this

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You could tell she was really in love with closet Tom. Nicole, you're better off without him. I wish her the best.
Noire says – reply to this

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Hate to say this but no matter how hard they try… she is just not sexy!
Jack Napier says – reply to this

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WTH is going on that cover? Her boobs are NO WAY that big. I don't care if it is a push up bra.
Bel says – reply to this

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How very, very sad. How heartbreaking to want something so desperately and for it to always be just out of your reach. At least she was fortunate enough to be able to adopt 2 beautiful children. She & Keith may have to get a surrogate if she continues to have a problem with miscarriage.
Kurtney says – reply to this

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She's EFFIN loaded but Tom divorced her cuz in Cali at 10yrs of marriage she'd be entitled to half of everything he's worth and all future projects. Such a low rent thing to do. I can't stand him now, piece of shit!
No...Just NO says – reply to this

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Wow. Fascinating! Thanks for the preview, I'll most certainly be picking this up. Nice to read somone being honest - and yes, brave. An adult's real life is ultimately more interesting than crap about those sniveling brats on Laguna Beach or The Hills.
snrgrl says – reply to this

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Sad. Tom seems to have gone off the deep end so she's better off. Best wishes to her and Keith!
kathryn says – reply to this

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she's talented, beautiful and amazing and things like that just add so much depth to the characters she is able to play.
Hello? says – reply to this

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Am I the only one annoyed by this?? She wants another kid, so she can ignore it like she does the two she already has? It says a lot about her and the committment she made to adoption when she bolted out of their lives and left them with the Freak to raise to them as Scientologists. She haas joint custody, but you never see her with them, or at soccer games, etc.
Oh, but she is yearning to have 'one of her own'…I think that Botox has gotten into her brain!
Denisa says – reply to this

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WoW!!
How Brave of her to tell the world about all of this. I really hope she gets pregnant, shehas two great kids, but having your own is different I guess.
Chloe says – reply to this

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We have all seen Nicole and Keith, madly in love. TomKat with baby Suri. But you never hear of the other adopted kids. Where are they? Did they give them back? Were they part of some Scientology family rental service?
RMP says – reply to this

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What's with the lips on the cover of the magazine? She looks more like Liv Tyler with blonde hair than Nicole Kidman.
CCCBBBB says – reply to this

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That pic doesn't even slightly look like her! She is so fugly and I bet is constantly jealous of Katie. That's really nice that she said she didn't want to adopt right away because she wanted "one of her own". Nice for Bella to read… She is the shittiest mother on the planet. Now she wants to cry some feel sorry for me story??? GO BE A MOTHER TO THE KIDS YOU HAVE! Best of luck to her at getting pregnant at 40 when she already had complications at 23.
TMomma says – reply to this

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Now I really have a reason not to like Tom. I am glad Nicole talked about her past it makes her seem more average and more real. What an A** he was tromping around with other ladies and she is losing a baby she wants so bad. It came out in the wash hes is a jerk w/o her help. Poor Katie she seems so young and nieve (sp?).
My question is how is his actions toward his wife make him so spiritualy enlightened? He needs to can it and look in the mirror. JERK
Joanna says – reply to this

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You should never marry someone because you're lonely…that's a recipe for disaster. I feel sorry for Nicole. She doesn't seem to have her head on straight.
jai jai says – reply to this

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to #38
HOW IN THE HELL CAN U SAY SURI IS NOT HIS KID?ARE U BLIND?SHE IS THE FRIGGIN SPITTING IMAGE OF HIM
Bella says – reply to this

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I didn't know her life was sad like that. She always came accross as strong.
I can't believe Tom dumped her. He dumped her because she is way too independent, and still believed in the religion she was brought up with. While on the other hand Katie, doesn't have a backbone, and is just a follower that will be known for being toms puppy.
angie says – reply to this

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That's one nasty bra. She is just not sexy AT ALL.
pp says – reply to this

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From the looks of it, she only adopted the kids because she misscarried, and she wants one of her own. Completelly understendable.
sexyiriecool says – reply to this

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You know it amazes me, that those of you that read the story about HER are still hating on Tom Cruise. SHE couldn't carry a baby to term, guess that proves that they WERE having sex, and that it wasn't impossible for HIM to father a child as so many were saying about baby Suri. It's so sad that you are all so incredibly jealous of two people who truly seem to love each other, and are raising a family together. Keep it real ladies, if a man loved you enough to jump around on a stage and shout it to the world the way Tom has about Katie you'd love it! To kiss you anytime anyplace, never wondering who is watching…a bunch of jealous slags all of you! What is it exactly that people hate him so much for??? OHHHHHHHhh that's right, because he's not afraid to show love and affection for his wife, his religion (have any of you ever heard of any Scientologists molesting children? raping little boys?? beating up their spouses??? selling drugs to high school students?? shooting rampages throughout schools???? sex scandals???? NOPE! While I'm NOT a Scientologist, I often wonder why all the negativity…funny how you don't hear about them in the news for all those negative things…makes you think eh??? Nicole sounds like a truly sad woman with no inner peace. Is it possible that is why she was miserable in her marriage to Tom?????
sexyiriecool says – reply to this

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Damn…don't judge others so harshly all the time…celeb or not. We all have our imperfections, and deep down inside, most people only want to live out a long happy life with those that they love. Of course something like that probably won't happen for you Perez, your too busy being jealous of others and being mean and ugly. Good Karma is NOT your friend.
raquel says – reply to this

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she has never been attractive. at least she was respectable, not so much now. whore it out!
JEEZLOUISE says – reply to this

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PRETTY DESPERATE COVER PHOTO FOR A PRISS LIKE HER.
drop dead gorgeous says – reply to this

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WOW!! THAT STORY IS CRAZY..@ LEAST SHE DIDNT HAVE 1 W/ THAT IDIOT.. I MEAN WHO WOULD…dumbass katie did..
wowsey says – reply to this

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…setting it up so it won't look so weird when she does have a baby with the "new" hubby. It will be "better technology", not that Tom never made love to her. On the other hand, all a woman needs to get preggers is a load of sperm and a turkey baster! Soooo wondering how this one is going to play out.
Hey, Mario, when are you going to give us that update on Fidel Castro?
JAIME says – reply to this

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TOM IS A DICK
char says – reply to this

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she looks awesome dude. i love sailor.
ginny says – reply to this

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lo que sera…sera
whatever says – reply to this

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whose lips are those? we all know she doesn't have any. they don't look even close to real.
ste says – reply to this

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he'll do to katie what he did to mimi and nicole before, nicole may seem cold and plastic but he made her that way and katie is heading down the same path… sosad she once had such a light in her aura.
marc says – reply to this

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i know it's sad and all to have a miscarriage, especially two, but perhaps they were blessings in disguise. she'd probably still be with him and locked away somewhere…
luvuperez! says – reply to this

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This cover is so sad, unnecessary, and un-classy! I can't imagine why she thinks she need to do this?!?!
m15 says – reply to this

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man she's had a tough life for a beautiful movie star (not being sarcastic). and it seems like this keith urban guy isn't ready for kids, hopefully he's done using though.
P says – reply to this

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Ha. RP, thanks for the Thor line … you made my night
Terry says – reply to this

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Sounds like she still hasn't found true love. And wtf is taking Keith Urban so long to get ready for a baby? Is he waiting until she is totally & completely barren? Jeez, selfish prick.
Adoption is Great!! says – reply to this

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I love Nicole!! always have since I first saw her in films,, I loved how she did not fit the "perfect look" of a hollywood actress,, she is tall,, very white skin,, no tanning,, redish hair,, just amazing looking and able to do so many different roles,,
I have heard before there were miscarry's involved,, but it's very sad to hear how all this happened,, and it seems Cruise was not supportive of her,, very sad,, she gave her life to him and he left her out to dry,,, I personnay have had 10 miscarrys,, before this though,, I had two natural children,, but the miscarry's are horrible to deal with in a marriage and you have to be supportive of each other,, I have since adopted a child,, I love my adopted child just as much as my natural children,
adoptions is a great blessing to the parents who want children and the children that need parents
I wish Nicole all the best with her husband and I hope she can one day have a baby or adopt more children,, she is super!!
Love out to Nicole!!
CCCBBBB says – reply to this

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The mag cover should read "I WANT TO BREAST FEED!"

She is such a psycho bitch. Bio kids fullfill her more than adopted kids??? Take away her parenting rights!
Scoop says – reply to this

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Is it me or do her boobs look 5x bigger than normal?
jaijai says – reply to this

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She is lookin super fine!! I'd like to rush that.
Yuck!! says – reply to this

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This woman is pathetic!! She is not pretty and her last few movies have not done so well. I guess she is jsut trying to get a little attention. Tom is so much better off without her.
herself says – reply to this

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Before baby Suri arrived, we saw photos of Tom & Katie with Bella and Connor all the time. I don't think I have seen a single photo of Bella, Connor and Suri together. Are they allowed to even touch her? See her? I totally feel for Nicole wanting to give birth but she is very, very lucky to have Bella and Connor. I hope they don't feel sad about not being enough to make her happy. Adopted kids have a hard enough time - even ones adopted by super wealthy, super famous parents.
Close Encounters of the Tom Cruise kind says – reply to this

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nicole is amazing person…Tom is a pig who most likely dumped her because she couldn't produce his alien spawn….god what a f-prick!!! I hate tom cruise…can u tell…
to domos fuglyiriestupid #53 says – reply to this

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Re: sexyiriecool – what the fuck are u on about people kill people not religion, religion has nothing to do with any pack of bull shit you just wrote there molesting, raping, selling drugs geez people do that religion or not fuck u're even more stupid than tom cruz
Jayde says – reply to this

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Just because she doesn't call the paparazzi every time she goes to one of the kids' games doesn't mean she never sees them. It's all just part of the Tom Cruise marketing machine. How often did you see them with him before he went all crazy and needed to show he was a normal dad again? Don't you realize that hardly any pictures of Nicole have been taken all summer, but there have been a ton taken of Tom and Katie in Germany with Suri. So either the other two are locked in a hotel all day, or they're here with Nicole.
maty says – reply to this

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how is it Tom's fault that she lost the babies! Miscarriages occur everyday! It was a coincidence that she found out she was pregnant when he got the divorce papers…there's gotta be a reason why he wanted a divorce!
remember, Tom Cruise dumped her right before the 10 year mark says – reply to this

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If everyone recalls,, Tom Cruise did dump Nicole right before the 10 year make of their marriage,, that way she woudl not get half,,(something like this,, it's been a while but recall this in the media) so,, she made enough money,, she did not need his,, she was at the time an up and coming very bankable hollywood actress,, I know he made more money,, but after you have say,, 50 to 100 million,, who cares right? Nicole is not the greedy type I'm sure,, I feeling is,, by the urging of his "fake church" they wanted him to find some young and dumb girl to have his seed, and produce him a child so the world would not find him gay! because everyone still thought he was gay back then,, and alot of people still do find him gay,, I dunno if he is gay or not,, I do know the "fake church" of his makes him look like a complete asshole, he did Nicole wrong,, and the thing that piissses me off the most is hen Cruise and Holmes had that baby,, and everyone would say,, Oh looks it's his first baby!!
it was not his first baby,, he and Nicole have two adopted children,, and they are real kids,, real babies at one point,, it does not matter if it's adoptions or biological,, a child is a child is a child!!
Tom Cruise is a total boob,, I have no respect for him,, Nicole is great,, Love her dearly!! Katie Holmes is a Robot,, Suri is cute though seems to be getting plenty of love from her parents and seems so happy, ,and she does look like Tom,
rocker says – reply to this

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yeah she looks real upset in that outfit… thats just in poor taste, talking about all of that and looking like that!! keith deserves better. he should call me
n3wmommy says – reply to this

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Re: She Lying – Why do you say she had the second miscarriage because she cheated? That doesn't happen!
Team Nicole says – reply to this

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I love Nicole! This was very interesting–thanks Perez. I hope Keith and Nicole make it and have a baby. That baby would give Angie and Brad's baby a run for its money. People that are that beautiful need to have babies.But what did she mean when she said "There’s a complicated background to that, given that I never speak much about many things. One day maybe that story will be told," when talking about the adopted children? I would like to know this story. And screw Tom that homo alien.
Jen says – reply to this

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Nicole has always been a class act. She is Hollywood royalty and I can't wait to get this issue!!!
hmmm says – reply to this

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thats so sad, i feel bad for them… too bad they didnt last. they definetly woulda been a golden couple.

katy holmes seems like tom cruise's niece..lol but their baby is adorable!
Jason says – reply to this

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To #59 - sexyiriecool,

I was a Scientologist for nine years. A lot of my money went to Scientology. They are nothing but con artists. I am happier without Scientology.
Emily says – reply to this

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Naomi Watts?
Why, oh why? says – reply to this

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I always knew she was a "poor, pitiful me-er". Seriously, I don't think any of this is necessary considering it was way in the past and she has grown children who can read these interviews…I'd feel awful shitty if I were one of them hearing this.
RedRory says – reply to this

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What the hell happened to her face? When did she get porn star lips?
oneluckeegrl says – reply to this

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Re: Jamie –
It doesn't matter if Tom has moved on, he had to pay alimony until SHE got remarried…..
DD says – reply to this

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Fascinating! I didn't realize a hermaphrodite could conceive. Jamie Curtis acknowledged that's why she adopted. Doesn't make you a freak or a bad person– unless you lie about it and Kidman's mastered the art of manipulating the truth to suit her desired image… so sad image and reality are so far apart.
SOMEONE says – reply to this

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WOW!!! Looks EXACTLY like Christina Aguilera!!!
IM NOT JUST A FAN, IM A CITIZEN OF PEREZ HILTON says – reply to this

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Re: Team Nicole – Shut the crap up about beautiful babies, you moron. That's pretty fucking creepy thing to say. I hope more people like have ugly ass kids like Alexa Joel.
BLONDIE says – reply to this

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Ummhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
The kid look's like Katie Holme's, not like Tom. Does anyone out there remember the story about him asking his agent for photo's of some of the "hot thing's out there in the acting world" so that he could hook-up with one to get back a younger audience????? This is what she got for being the only one out there that was stupid enough to take him up on the offer.
She deserve's everything she get's and she is not "hot".
IM NOT JUST A FAN, IM A CITIZEN OF PEREZ HILTON says – reply to this

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Re: sexyiriecool – I wish I could write a virus wherein my beatstick pops out of your monitor and stomps you on your stupidy head.
Ryan says – reply to this

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I think Nicole is a wonderful, talented actress with such grace and elegance. I feel sorry for her loss, as miscarriage can be a very traumatic an horrible thing for anyone to experience, but she has prevailed. I really hope the best for her, she seems like a very nice woman.