Hospitalized. Again.
Filed under: Steve-O
Drugs will fuck your brain up and leave permanent damage, kids.
Steve-O has learned that the hard way!
After 115 days of sobriety, he claims, the Jackass star is seeking to further his recovery by checking himself in to a psychiatric hospital (the looney bin, as he calls it).
Steve-O shares his struggles on his blog.
He writes:
"Hello Everyone,
After seeing "Dr. Drew's Celebrity Addiction Special" on VH1 News, I figured it was time to put something out there for you all. I expected my part on that show to be much harder to watch than it wound up being. It made me want to explain a little bit of what I've been going through since I got clean, to help some of you understand how much damage drugs and alcohol have really done to me. I've now been clean for 115 days, and I'm, again, in a mental institution. I did so much cocaine, ketamine, pcp, nitrous oxide, and all sorts of other drugs, that, quite simply, my brain is fucked up. As you can probably tell by the way I'm writing this, my cognitive skills are alright, but, I frequently suffer from horrible mood swings and severe depression. Those of you who have followed my warped mind's trail on the Internet for a significant amount of time have, I'm sure, been very aware of those attributes, but, I just want you all to know that four fucking months (almost) of not touching a damn thing that a psychiatrist didn't perscribe to me hasn't changed that shit. The medication that is prescribed to me doesn't do the trick every day, let's just put it that way. I'm back in the looney bin trying to get that shit right. The bottom line is that doing drugs fucked my ass up and I'm going to be paying for it for a long time, probably for the rest of my life. Everyone's going to make their own decisions in life, but nobody needs to make the same mistakes I made. I love you all,
Steve-O"
Get well soon, bud!
Die fuck head
holy crap…….I just drink beer….I think I will stop. no way!
~~Goose bumps & tears
I'm really rooting for him. I hope he can get well mentally & stay clean forever!
for someone who's brain is fucked up, steve-o writes a lot better than i do sober.
Unexpected from someone who I previously considered an idiot. I think it's great (and very mature) of him to share this. For someone who branded himself a moron, it's refreshing to see this side of him…trying to help others from making the same mistakes. Too many people think they can just "dabble" in drugs and this is not the case. There are lasting effects and maybe this will help others see that. Good luck Steve…it's never too late to try to make things right and I wish you success in the future.
You can tell the guy is way smarter than we gave him credit for because of all the shit the drugs did to his head. I wish him nothing but strength, love and self-control.
Way to go Steve-O…
Get well Steve-o!!
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Hard road ahead…..Good luck!
I'm proud of him… the fact that he knows he is some what of a role model to kids (well he was during his glory days) and is now using that combined with his experiences with drugs, which so many kids are hooked to now days, shows that he is out to help others by helping him self and vice versa. I think he should continue to blog because his story will help someone else dealing with addiction. People will get a look in to the recovery process and see how it isnt so easy and how the consequences of drugs, can last forever.
Stay strong Steve-O. Your emotional balance might be out of whack right now but you CAN adapt and get through this. Do what thou willt, buddy. Do what THOU willt… let love be your law… Mxxx
If you could remember all the things you've done whilst under the influence of narcotics then it may have been worth it. But you can't…lucky for you some of it was caught on camera so you'll be able to re-live parts of it from a different perspective. Perhaps you'll understand how stupid you've looked and how utter shit like Mad-ass (or whatever that pointless rubbish was called) gives completely the wrong impression to kids. Y'all got too much money…get poor. THEN you'll feel the true sting of drugs.
Nevermind anyway…none of it is real.
Arg! Poor guy…
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I really wish him the best. I have friends that have gone down the same road as him. In their thirties and still doing the same drugs they did at 18. Addiction is so much bigger than we are…it's so tough to beat. It can take away everything in your life..house, loved ones, job, money.. I beat my addiction about a year ago and am still clean! When I get urges or depressed I just remember what doing all those opiates cost me.
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I am doing fab now but I should have done this ten years ago. I am happy he recognizes the consequences of drug use and is taking a step in the right direction. GO STEVE-O! I got yo back, fool!!
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One of the best things (to me) about being off drugs is now I can buy things I have always wanted…like those hot pink high heels with the bow from Betsey Johnson!! He will find life is MUCH BETTER sober.
I think it is great he put that out there for people, and I hope he can hang in there!!!
Good going Steve-O! Admitting how much abusing drugs has "messed up his head" is a GIANT step to recovery…but it should also be a testiment to how f'ed up he's really NOT, meaning not enough to still be in denial. This man may have acted the Jackass, but he's certainly smart enough to not continue to behave like one. I wish my uncle (on 10 years, clean 10 years, back on 2 years-FINALLY REHABBED) could open up and do the same. Do what you gotta do Steve- we're rooting for ya!
GOOD LUCK STEVE! GET WELL!!!!
it shows real growth in some one to be able to say the things that he is saying. i wish him all the strength and well being….get well soon steve o
Good Im so glad steve-o is getting some serious help. Good Luck Steve we love your sexy skinny mean ass too.
Wow I have always thought of him as a loser but I give him a lot of credit for writing this. At least he realizes that there's something wrong and wants to change and wants to get the word out to the kiddies.
Re: Go-O! –
Absolutely!! Not being in denial anymore is the first step towards a long recovery.
Good luck to your uncle as well!!
Good for him! I'm so happy to see he is thinking long term & not looking for a quick fix. Dont worry about your past look forward to your clean, healthy future. Take care of yourself.
Don't you guys think that it's strange that his brain is fucked up yet he can write and speak beter than Paris Hilton sober when she writes in her blogs? Looks like that dumb bitch's brain is worse than we thought!
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U r brave…..I'll say a prayer
4/U…open y'r eyez and look pazt
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picture….mozt people don't get it…
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they should do another Jackass movie and he should really kill himself on film.
WHY IS THIS IDIOT STILL ALLIVE!!!
HE'S A TOTAL WASTE OF A HUMAN LIFE!!
no shit drugs are bad … Eat it Perez!!!
Re: Fanny –
yes he really needs to killl himself ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what a loser!!!!
this is what kids look up to nowadays!!!!
It's cool that he's so open about his struggle…maybe it'll inspire others to get sober…I've never liked him, but I hope he gets better.
good luck steve-o!
Just kill yourself, homeboy
I am pretty square these days but my husband and I have always adored Steve-O. We figured he was one of those brilliant people who fell through the cracks/couldn't conform in high school or was just too wild for his own good, and reading his thoughts kinda confirms for me that the guy is so intelligent and thoughtful. Reminds me of some guys I grew up with, some of whom are no longer here, others of whom blew their potential and are just moving from job to job in my hometown. I feel for Steve-O and I wish him so much health and peace. The world is not easy. Have not checked his blog but I bet he's getting so much support. Hope that keeps up, and especially from the people he keeps close to him. We love you Steve-O, and we're rooting for you!
It's really good to see him own up to his mistakes. We can all appreciate him for that. It's easy to have compassion on someone when they are being honest and transparent.
I must say though, that was very eloquent. It made me root for him. Now, if only Amy Winehouse could come to this realization herself, and join Steve in getting better..
Do drugs and die just like Steve O will soon!
Wow…did anyone else notice his superb grammar skills? I'm actually quite impressed. With the exception of spelling prescribe as "perscribe" only once, this is actually very well written with commas in the all the right places and everything. Good job, Steve-O!
his parents were too lenient and he was probably hyperactive in school and maybe had learning disabilities and absolutely fell through the cracks without question. had he had parents who gave him ultimatums and made sure he was doing well in school, he could have been anything and wouldn't be a big grown up kid. i mean bam margera is even worse. he's a kook. why did the parents let them become this way?
very honest
we've all done things we are ashamed of, but we can't go back in time as much as we wish we could. much love and prayers for you steve o !! **hug and pinch on bottom**
U don't have 2 pay for it the rest of ur life -
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it may take a couple of years -
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u've got 2 rewire ur computer -
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negative thoughts needs 2 be addressed and destroyed -
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these negative thoughts r not coming from u -
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see them for what they r and destroy them (over and over again) !
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ur going 2 have 2 dig deep (all the way back 2 the Creator) -
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i know i am going 2 receive a lot of 'hate' 4 this -
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But - ur going 2 have to use the name of the Lord -
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"in the name of Jesus - i rebuke thee evil spirit and cast thee into the outer darkness" -
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u will have 2 do this hundreds (maybe thousands of times) -
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But - the devil will tire- (he only has so many demons to waste) -
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a quicker way is 2 get babtized into the true Church (body of Christ) -
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the Church (body) of Christ is protected -
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i know u r stiff-necked and unyeilding -
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so -
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b4 u break completely - take the advice 2 heart -
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Peace
Shalom Aleichem (peace be with you)
Dr. M
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you are still doing drugs steve-o, just the "legal" kind. you think you are fucked up now, just stay with the shrink and keep taking the drugs prescribed to you. that will certainly finish you off. let's treat addiction with more drugs, duh, what a great plan. you should just smoke some weed and be done with it. alcohol and prescribed drugs are far worse. the pharmaceutical companies are congratulating you, i'm sure. maybe in your next blog you could give us the names of the drugs you are on so we can all try them.
honest and to the point. stay strong man, its gna be a long journey but if you keep it open and allow others to help you, hopefully we'll see you back and healthy soon
Glad he is Finally taking responsibility for his behavior. Miracles happen. I hope he stays focused. keep the faith-life is so much better after you pull through it!
Pscripts are still drugs. Bottom line he is jacked for the rest of his life. Controlling your mood with illegal drugs or legal drugs???? I'm sad for him. It will be nothing but a battle til the day he dies.
wow i am praying for you steve-o!!!!
Sober 3 years and counting - it will get better Steve-O, just hang in….the rewards of sobriety are limitless…HUGS and PRAYERS from Florida
He'll get through it. Poor guy.
Addiction screws up your life, and it's so sad.
I've seen friends go through it and it's not cool at all, man.
I hope everything turns out okay for him.
And he is a strong guy to be working this hard.
He wants to get better, and that's the best part about it.
i feel your pain buddy. i did probably just about as much as he did and i have been in the looney bin 3 times. fucks your shit up. get healthy dude. its worth it! hard, but worth it. (i still sip on the drink every now and then though.)
the US medical community is so behind on treatments for drug rehabilitation and dependence due to the DEA and FDA regulation of scheduled drugs. Prescribed medications are still part of the drug corporations profit making scheme and psychiatrists still get kickbacks from these synthetic drugs. he should look into ibogaine treatment which a "supposed" revolutionary but unknown treatment for the mainstream treatment culture. Long used in the African tribal communities for spiritual rituals this plant has had been researched to have profound effects on the treatment of addictions.
"Ibogaine is now used by treatment clinics in 12 countries on 6 continents to treat addictions to heroin, alcohol, powder cocaine, crack cocaine, and methamphetamine as well as to facilitate psychological introspection and spiritual exploration."
My cousin has gone through the same thing. His brain is fried and now he is hearing voices in his head. All before he turned 18. Breaks my heart.
So Sad. He is a PRIME example of how the media fueled someone to do the WRONG things for attention. All aspects of the media should have taken a vow to STOP interviewing, photographing or allowing him parts in movies or on shows.
Steve O, I do wish you well and hope that in time you will feel better inside and out. It will take at least ten years to get back to number one, but you can do it. Maybe you can train to walk a marathon. The training will rekindle your natural endorphins.
PEREZ: IS THIS WHAT TINA CHEN WILL END UP LIKE? YOU ARE USING HER AND FUELING SOMEONE WHO SHOULD NOT BE MADE FUN OF AND WHEN SHE REALIZES SHE WAS JUST YOUR JOKE, YOU WILL BE TO BLAME!!!!!!!
good luck stev-o!!
ok perez he put that up damn near a week ago maybe instead of doing shit with hot topic and parties(woah you say stuff like that about celebs)and do you job keep this web site up to date
Wow, this was really raw and real, i think it's amazing he decided to post this. It's great to see any human , in this case Steve-o, come to true realization. This is just the beggining of his new life i'm guessing…well i hope.
p.s- say no to drugs.. ? was that the moral of this story? ..
Good for you !
keep it up and succeed.
I wish him the very best. I always tried to ignore this man- thought he was a right ass-clown, but I am really rooting for him, and god bless him for putting all his problems out there. Hopefully he can help and warn others.
Another poor soul who's probably ADD and uses street drugs to try and calm down. Get help, man. It's less expensive to get the right treatment.
I, too, was very impressed and surprised by his grammar skills. Very articulate.
Wow thats really sad.I mean I knew he had a drug addiction,but holy crap.You know.Regardless of whether he believes what he writes or not(that drugs are bad blah blah) which Im sure he does because look at what its done to him.I mean we saw all the crazy stuff he's done on tv.No sane person does that.I really do hope he gets better.No human being deserves to go out like that and deserves to be reached out too.Lets hope he finally gets help and sticks with it.:)
I wonder how many other actors are schizophrenic and are only blaming it on the drugs. Right, Amy Winehouse?
He should stay off all meds for awhile and let his body recover. Doctor-prescribed drugs are still drugs. Doctors are dangerous too…400,000 deaths a year from medical mistakes, that's not okay. Get well Steve.
Good luck Steve-o… you will make it through this.
Man up pussboy, rehab is for quitters.
Oh, I don't know. He looks like he's got a couple of real nice girlfriends there with him - real "girl-next-door" types. A guy couldn't get nice wholesome girls like that to go out with him if he had a problem, could he?
I have a completely new view of Steve-O and wish him the very best battling his demons. It's such a positive step to acknowledge the need for and to seek further treatment. He's obviously not a total idiot — he is very well spoken when he's sober; his writing clear, open and definitely not from a stupid man. Good luck Steve-O.
The progress and improvement that can be seen in a relatively short time frame is not usually so encouraging, but the progress which is apparent and undeniable over a longer period is the real goal and purpose. Fortunately there aren't so many other options, and in fact the one and only option is to go ahead, the past being a closed book and the present being only a stop along the way. The brain has recuperative powers and these can gradually phase in over time. As with all cases of recovery from addiction and toxicity , the spiritual angle should never be ignored. Success.
Good for her and well said.
wow… He's the most eloquent celebrity I'm aware of. Nice.