Parade magazine has interviewed "flatscreen" forehead, Nicole Kidman, for their latest issue.
And, according to Kidman, she's a total emotional mess and describes herself as "raw and emotional", often crying just thinking about her new baby.
She also opens up about going "to hell and back" when it came to discussing Keith Urban's alcohol addiction.
Here are some of the HIGHlights:
As a new mother to daughter Sunday Rose, Nicole Kidman has reacted intensely with "whatever that primal thing is, the need and desire to keep her very protected," she says. "People say, 'Oh, it would be so much easier if you'd just let them get a photo of her.' And I can't. I'm like, 'I don't want to. I want her to stay out of that.' Maybe that will wane as she gets bigger, and I'll be easier with it. But for now, I'm still keeping her in a bubble." Her eyes turn red and moist. "I'm raw and emotional," Kidman admits. "I cry even thinking of her. But they are tears of joy. Because I suppose I never thought I would get to have it. To have been given it so late in life—I'm so ready for it. And I think giving birth to a child, as a woman, is what we're born to do. I don't mean that to sound sexist, because many women don't get to do it, and I thought I was one of them. But at the same time, if you are given that gift, it's an extraordinary thing."
Kidman and ex-husband Tom Cruise share custody of their adopted children and, as she confirms, they were raised in Scientology. When the subject comes up, Kidman stiffens. "I just don't talk about it," she says. "Bella and Connor are 15 and 13, so we've taken them, Tom and I, almost into their adult life. To then have a birth child that I have to take into adult life, give her her wings, it's a big purpose. I know my place. Put it that way."
Kidman says, "My relationship with death used to be far more ambivalent, I think, and now it's very much about staying in the world. That's why in the past I could jump out of planes and take a lot of risks. Strangely enough, I think when you have children at 25, you still have that 'what will be, will be' attitude. It's such a different way of parenting. Bella and Connor were very free and easy, probably because they had parents who were very young and jumping around the world and pretty easygoing."
Four months after her 2006 wedding to country singer (and fellow Australian) Keith Urban, he checked himself into rehab. "We were thrown into his alcohol problem three months into the marriage, and that was big," she says. "We became the closest we could become, because we had to bare our souls. We did 10 years of marriage in three months. You go to hell and back with this—when the addiction takes control of the life, it's terrifying. But there is hope, and we work on it every day, and we are in a place of actual peace right now, which is a beautiful place. I love him so deeply, and he has done an amazing amount of work, and he is an amazing husband, and I am just very, very grateful."
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