On Monday, the reality TV star took to Instagram to share a relatively cryptic message to his many followers.
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As we all eagerly await Britney: For The Record, EW's got some juicy new soundbites.
On Justin Timberlake and FedEx - whom she jokingly refers to as her "babies' daddy":
With Justin, he was a part of the magnitude of what I had become. So when he was gone I was like, What am I supposed to do with myself? I was devastated [by the breakup] but I handled it a lot better than the [split] with Kevin….He started to do an album for himself and he started to do things for himself, and I just never saw him anymore….When it ended I felt so alone. I didn't really wanna think about the reality of it. I never faced it….I just ran.
On her 2007 breakdown and recovering:
My trust has really been battered….Sometimes it can get kinda lonely….I had totally lost my way. I lost focus. I lost myself. I let certain people into my life that were just bad people…because I was lonely….I really paid the consequences for that. Big time….What the hell was I thinking?
At first, it's amazing, the first year or two, because it's like, I'm a celebrity!….It didn't really touch me until I had been working for six years….I wanted to just stop. I wanted to create a new life.
And on the current state of her life:
Do I know my life is weird? It's all I've ever known. I don't see it as being weird….I'm kind of stuck in this place and I'm like, How do you deal? I just cope with it every day….It's better not to feel anything at all and have hope than to feel the other way….It's bad. I'm sad. (At this point she breaks down into tears! Poor BritBrit, "she's so lucky, she's a star, but she cry cry cries in her lonely heart.") It's like Groundhog Day every day. It's really boring….Normal is really different for everybody….In my situation, I try to make it as normal as possible for me….It could be a lot worse. There are people out there who have it a lot worse than I do….I used to be a cool chick but I feel like the paparazzi has taken that away from me, like, the way I used to live my life. I used to be a cool chick but I'm not anymore.
The 90 minute MTV documentary airs November 30th and follows the singer over the three months following her VMA appearance.