Although she hasn't spoken about the event since it happened, Jennifer Hudson opens up about the 2008 murder of her mother mother Darnell, brother Jason and nephew Julian.
"It's all a blur, it was surreal," she said. "It was like I was outside of myself."
She just stayed in seclusion.
"For almost two weeks straight . . . [I was] inside one room with just family and friends coming in and out. I prayed when I'd get up in the morning and prayed before I laid down at night," she added.
But it was her performance at the 2009 Grammys, singing You Pulled Me Through, that gave her strength.
"I was definitely thinking of my family when I was singing that song. I could hear my brother in my head, like, 'Jennifer, you need to kill this, you need to get up and do it.' I knew he would be disappointed if I didn't do it justice.
I feel like I've lived about three or four different lives.
My son "reminds me of my nephew. In so many ways I channel her because she was such a great mom. Little David "makes me feel like the most special person on earth. I want him to get the same love and the same upbringing my mother gave us."
She's been through so much! Stay strong, bb.
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