Our heart is really breaking right now for Sarah Harding.
The troubled Girls Aloud star split from her fiance Tom Crane earlier in the year before checking herself into rehab, and has now been charged with assault after a New Year's Eve incident with new boyfriend Theo De Vries, whom she met while seeking treatment for alcoholism and depression.
Although this sorry excuse for a man has attempted to point the finger of blame at her, Sarah is now speaking out about how severely abused she actually was that night in Innsbruck, Austria, and it is truly difficult to digest.
"We met in rehab and I was at a real low in my life. We got on really well and he was a completely different person when we were in rehab. We just decided to give it a go. When we came back to London, things just didn't seem to be the same. It didn't work. I think he knew I missed Tom, because I do desperately. I think in a way I was on a rebound. I think that pissed him off. I called him Tom a few times by mistake. He hated that. Probably when we were rowing probably because I used to shout at Tom. Now I think he's full of shit. Reading what he said in The Sun, I thought, 'Oh my God'. I never threw an ashtray at him. I threw a mug at him, because he was goading me. He was being so foul to me."
"I have a black eye and bruising. He had me by the neck, on the floor, and I kicked him to get him off me. He grabbed me by my hair throwing my head on the floor. We were struggling. While he had me by the hair, he was pulling me across the floor. He was dragging me around. He was smacking my head on the floor. He bit my ear. And when I kicked him to try and get him off me, I got his nose and he was bleeding. He smeared the blood all over my face so it was all over my clothes. Look at me, look what he has done to me. That doesn't come from just holding me back. I've got bruises on my bum. Bruises on my legs. The damage to my arm is probably the worst. This is where they bandaged me in hospital as they thought I might have fractured it. During the row he said, 'You're nothing but a B-class singer. You are just a fucking alcoholic. You have got no friends. He was really, really horrible. Any insecurities I had, he used them against me. He was goading me. The abuse carried on and on and on till I'd had enough. He got so horrible I threw a coffee cup at him. It missed. It was probably coming up to midnight. I'm not going to lie, I had a gin and tonic at the airport, but I was sober at this point. I wasn't drunk at all. He didn't seem drunk but he just completely changed character."
That kind of toxic abuser is the last thing she needs right now during such a difficult point in her life, and it's clear that he took advantage of that vulnerability just so he could drag her down to his level of misery and self-loathing.
Again - what a sorry excuse for a man. He should be ashamed of himself, but clearly, he's so spineless and warped that we doubt he is.
We can't even begin to imagine what you're going through, Sarah, but if there's any silver lining in this miserable situation, it's that you know exactly what kind of person he is now, and you can move forward with your life - away from him.
Keep on fighting - we know you can persevere!
You're in our thoughts. Stay strong.
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