In a recent interview, Pete Doherty, reflects how he felt paralyzed from shock after Amy Winehouse's death.
We still remember the great sense of loss we felt when Winehouse passed away so we can only imagine how Doherty, who was really close to the talented but troubled singer, felt.
Doherty describes the day he learned of Amy's passing, saying:
"When Amy died I was sat in a matchbox room in Camden Town, not able to leave, basically wallowing in my own filth. Literally knee-deep in shit. Literally not able to move. I couldn't speak, I couldn't see anyone, I couldn't pick up the guitar and when I did pick up the guitar it was woeful ballads about how Amy wouldn't be coming round tonight. It wasn't a very inspiring time."
Doherty was banned from Winehouse's funeral. Amy's father, Mitch Winehouse, did not want him to attend.
"I think she would have wanted me at her funeral. It's a personal feeling of grief I've never had the chance to see through. I'm made to feel that I'm not her friend, which I was. She came to the Libertines' gig at the forum. We came back to the hotel and she stayed all night. At one point it was me, her and Carl having a little sing-song."
Winehouse's father had thought Doherty was a bad influence on his daughter. He was probably right.
"I remember one time she was due to play at the Apollo in Hammersmith, 'I saw you and Babyshambles play last week. I'll show you a real gig, come to my hotel room.' Her dad turned up at the hotel and told me 'You've got to go'."
We're glad Doherty is talking about his pain and hopefully letting some of it go. It's what Amy would've wanted, Pete!
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