Holly Madison went through some very dark times.
While everyone now knows the dirty and disturbing secrets of the Playboy mansion thanks to Holly's new book, Down The Rabbit Hole, there was a time when the model once seemed desperate to marry Hugh Hefner.
So we have to wonder -- why would Madison want to tie the knot with a man who allegedly caused her so much pain and turmoil?
Unfortunately, the reason is very sad and depressing.
The momma of one revealed:
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