Michelle Rodriguez opened up in a recent interview with Entertainment Weekly about how the heartbreaking death of Paul Walker prompted her to lose control of her life and sound mind.
The Furious 7 star, who is known for partying hard, had some pretty high profile flings with Cara Delevingne and Zac Efron in the past year, and according to her, they were a way to cope with the loss of Paul.
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Here's what Michelle had to say about the period of time that followed her friend's tragic death:
"I actually went on a bit of a binge. I went crazy a little bit… I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind… I was pushing myself to feel. I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was traveling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling.
I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who's deep like me, who loves like that… When that disappears, you wonder, ‘Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?' There was nothing to tether me to this existence: ‘Why am I f*cking here? And, like, why'd you leave without me?'… I just woke up [one morning] with a profound respect for living. I stood tall one day and I said, ‘You know what, Michelle? Stop f*cking hiding. Go manifest.' And all of a sudden, I picked myself up and started hustling."
A loss like that takes a lot of time to grieve over, Michelle. And we all mourn in different ways.
We're so glad you've picked yourself up, gurl, and that you're dealing with your emotions the healthy way!
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