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Mariah Carey Gets Candid About Her Miscarriage, Marriage To Nick Cannon, & The Perils Of Fame!

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Mariah discusses the ups and downs of life.

Nothing can hold Mariah Carey down!

One of the best-selling female artists of all time is currently enjoying even more success with her residency at Caesars Palace in Las Vegas.

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But in a new interview she doesn't shy away from discussing the darker sides of fame.

In fact, there have been times when she's felt incredibly lonely despite her popularity:

"Stardom is a magical yet freakish situation at times. It's a cliché but very true that at times you feel so alone even when you're surrounded by so many people. Trust is not very easy for me at all. I want to be a trusting person but I've been bruised so many times – not to sound woe-is-me about my life. I'm thankful for my fans who make up for the lack of closeness I feel to most people who start out as friends and ultimately take advantage of me. I'm a very loyal person and it takes a lot for me to actually un-friend someone. I'm actually very loyal, to my detriment. Yeah, the past few years have had their ups and downs."

It's true that all the money in the world can't buy genuine loyalty.

The singer also bravely recounts the miscarriage she suffered a few months after her marriage to Nick Cannon in 2008:

"I was going to tell them [her friends and family] I was pregnant and make little baby ornaments with them because obviously I didn't know [what had happened] until the scan. That was a difficult Christmas. It was huge. There are really no words and it's difficult to talk about. That was the lowest point for me. I wasn't sure why it happened. I was working on Touch My Body so I was very thin and working out a lot. I didn't know you had to stop exercising and stop doing yoga when you're pregnant. Nobody told me these things."

The fear of that painful day stayed with her when she found out she was pregnant again in 2011:

"That's why it was so scary when I became pregnant with the twins a couple of years later. I was in the house in Los Angeles in that private moment when you take the test in the loo. It was an incredible feeling but, yes, scary. Having the babies was a great high point but being pregnant was not easy."

Of course now four-year-old twins Monroe and Moroccan are everything to the star!

"These guys are… we're one and the same. They're babies but they're mine and they'll always, forever be my responsibility. Not all people think that way but I feel I have to fight the dysfunction in my family to get to that place where they know Mummy always comes back – 'Don't worry, it's always going to be us.'"

Awww! It must be super dusty in here because we have tears in our eyes all of a sudden!

And although she can't discuss Nick while the divorce is ongoing, she does admit that it's been difficult:

"Christmas was a rough time for me personally but I got through it and you know what? It was for the kids. That was the whole thing. I have a song called Side Effects which goes, 'I kept my tears inside because I knew if I started I'd keep crying for the rest of my life with you. I finally built up the strength to walk away, don't regret it but I still live with the side effects.' That became something I sang over and over to myself because I've been through a lot over the last couple of years. I don't talk about that because it's inappropriate. I'm just getting used to when the kids have days out and overnight stays. I have to get used to that but I'm finding it hard. It is what it is. I want them to have great relationships with all their family and I wouldn't want to do anything to undermine that."

Well, she definitely sounds mature and level-headed about it all!

Stay strong and keep singing, MiMi!

[Image via WENN.]

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