After admitting that she had suicidal thoughts during her stay at the Playboy mansion, Holly Madison is continuing to reveal details about her dark past — most notably, her rocky relationship with Hugh Hefner.
[ Related: Holly Contemplated Committing Suicide At The Mansion! ]
The Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny author says the adult magazine's head honcho abused her both emotionally and verbally!
She even remembers when he offered her drugs during their very first encounter:
"‘Would you like a Quaalude?' Hef asked, leaning toward me with a bunch of large horse pills in his hands, held together by a crumpled tissue."
After she turned down the pills, Hef commended her, while at the same time calling the pills "thigh openers" — Whoa, what??
And as it turns out, Holly wasn't the only Playboy model he was targeting. She said the 89-year-old would play mind games with all the girls:
"I learned Hef was the manipulator and that he pitted us against one another. I realized I wasn't treated well. I'm done being afraid of people. I don't have any loyalty to Hef. I haven't talked to him in four years, so there's no reason to reach out now. Besides, it's the truth."
But before Holly finally made her move to leave the mansion, Hugh still had one last trick up his sleeve — to BUY the Girl Next Door! And it would've cost him a pretty penny:
"It was there, in black and white. The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to Holly Madison at the time of his death (provided I still lived in the Mansion). At the time, it was more money than I'd ever know what to do with… But I didn't want it. I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn't help but be offended. Did he really think he could buy me? I put the folder back on the bed just as I had found it and never breathed a word of it."
It seems like Holly totally made the right call when she decided to pack her bags!
She's been married to her husband Pasquale Rotella for about two years now, and she seems happier than ever!
The former Girls Next Door star hopes that one day her daughter, Rainbow will read her memoir.
[Image via Dimitri Halkidis/WENN.]
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