Everyone copes in different ways!
In an interview with Style Like U, the 31-year-old admitted:
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Holly Madison has recently dished tons of dirt about what really goes on in the Playboy mansion in her new book Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny.
Since Holly's book made its way to the market and excerpts were leaked in interviews, the Marriage Boot Camp cast member has publicly defended Playboy's head honcho Hugh Hefner from the 35-year-old's claims, and even showed us all where she stands on her own former friendship with the blonde.
Now, the former Playmate is firing back, telling Us Weekly about how the falling out was not her fault, and rather, that she tried to make a relationship work, even from the first impression:
"I liked her and I tried to be friends with her. But she's also a person who pushes people away, too."
"My first impression when I met her was that she was really nice. She didn't have a lot to say, but the situation at the Mansion is pretty intimidating so that's not surprising."
Holly explained that eventually, it seemed like they had gotten to a point where they could be close, right around the time of Girls Next Door:
"The show bonded us together and turned us into a group. It was kind of us against the world and not Hef trying to pit us girls against each other as much as it had been."
In her memoir, she discussed the "balls" that Kendra had regarding all the demands she would make during her time in the mansion, writing:
"I have to admit, I envied Kendra's sense of entitlement. I had felt so lucky just to scrape by when I moved into the Mansion, and here was a rookie who had just gone all the way with an old dude and her only concern was how big her room was going to be. Though she wasn't cunning and sophisticated as the other girlfriends who had inhabited the Mansion in recent years, she seemed to have that same hustler mentality."
But she explained that while the two don't currently get along, she wasn't trying to throw any shade at the 30-year-old in her book. Instead, she says she was just trying to explain the culture of the house:
"When I was writing about Kendra in the book, I had a lot of mixed feelings about it because some of what I say comes off as pretty negative. I definitely didn't want to bash another woman in the book, that wasn't where I was going, but I didn't feel like people would understand where I was coming from or why I was so miserable at the house if they didn't understand how bad the 'dumb girl culture' made me feel."
But, don't get that confused for kindness. The blonde beauty still managed to call out the Kendra On Top star when she was asked if she was worried at all that her frenemy might snag a copy of her memoir, saying:
"I lived with Kendra for four years and I never saw her in the vicinity of a book, so I don't think she's going to read it. Maybe she'll have frenemies fill her in on what it says? But I don't think she's going to read it."
Ouch! Those are some harsh words.
It seems pretty clear that with all these shots fired we can forget about any sliver of hope for a renewed relationship between the two.
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