Our hearts are breaking over this social media celeb split!
But, Miz Ballinger stressed that her former flame didn't wrong her in any way, adding:
Instead, the singer clarified that they ultimately weren't a good fit together:
This is gonna be good!
Ramona Singer's new memoir — Life On The Ramona Coaster — is a great, insightful work into everything Real Housewives of New York City and absolutely everything Ramona!
The reality TV star chronicles her life from childhood all the way up to becoming a Bravo big wig, and we've got some excerpts!
Maybe the most glaring part of the memoir is that Ramona nearly didn't do the show in the first place!! Speaking about being cast for RHONY, Ramona wrote she nearly canceled on them at the last minute:
"After they send me the contract, I start having second thoughts; I don't really have time for this. I don't need to be famous. I'm already popular with my friends. I already have a successful business. I'm married. I have my daughter. I have a full life. I don't need this stress in my life. What do I need to take this on for? I contact Bravo and tell them I'm out."
Thankfully for all of us, Ramona chose to go on with the show!
"I was deteriorating physically and emotionally. I was disappearing into myself. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I knew once Avery went back to college, I would be alone with Mario and I was beginning to realize that I couldn't be around him anymore. It felt like no matter what I did, he seemed to be getting angrier and angrier with me. I think he was, in fact, angry with himself for being unfaithful, but he turned his rage on me because he couldn't handle the guilt. He never laid a hand on me, but he would get this white rage in his eyes and I began to feel very threatened and afraid."
Considering how Mario is now dead to her, we're glad Ramona was at least able to overcome a stressful situation. She wrote about the toll it took on her at the time, though:
"The stress of everything became unmanageable and it began to wreak havoc on my mind, body, and spirit. There were times when I was so low that I almost felt like throwing myself in front of a subway train. I was so anxious and depressed that my doctor put me on anxiety medication. I think it was at this point that Mario finally began to see how much of a toll everything we were going through had taken on me."
Ramona isn't shy about first impressions, either! When she met Simon van Kempen, she recalled that it was not the smoothest of first-looks:
"Mario and I have just finished a romantic dinner together and are about to leave the restaurant, when I hear Jill Zarin's raspy voice coming from over by the bar. She is waiting to be seated with her reserved, soft-spoken husband, Bobby. Beside them at the bar is a lanky, fair-skinned blonde and a flamboyantly dressed, animated man with closely cropped ginger hair. For a moment, I wonder if Jill has replaced her 'gay husband' Brad, but then I see the man affectionately caressing the blonde's slender back. Oh my God, I think to myself as I scrunch my face in distaste, are they a couple?"
Ramona dishes on all the Housewives in the memoir — and goes in far deeper than just her comments on Simon — but it's a fun start!
Finally, it turns out TV makes the reality star nervous. Who knew?! But it's the real deal, at least with live TV, according to her:
"Although I have had cameras following me around through two seasons of filming for Real Housewives, there is something about live television that freaks me out. For starters, there is no editing. And, as any of my fellow Housewives will tell you, I need editing. First and foremost, there's the issue of when to speak. I don't have a problem finding things to say, but I do have a hard time taking direction. I'm worried about knowing when I should talk and when I should let the host talk."
Awww, Ramona! That just makes for good TV! LOLz!
her memoir is a must-read if you're a Housewives fan, y'all. Will U be checking it out?? Drama, drama, drama!!
[Image via Ivan Nikolov/WENN.]