It's hard to imagine the Oscars without its jaw-dropping ending!
Sadly, this meant the comedian couldn't close the show with
Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab.
On Tuesday evening, the rapper took to Facebook to pen a lengthy note about his struggle with "depression and suicidal urges" AND opened up about his decision to seek help. Cudi, whose real name is Scott Mescudi, also cited his anxiety as one of the main factors which led him to enter treatment.
"It's been difficult for me to find the words to what I'm about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans."
Intense stuff. He continued:
"Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I would've done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin' violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it."
Poor thing! However, it seems as though the Ohio native is really dedicated to getting better as he revealed it was time to show himself "some love".
The Entourage actor noted:
"I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I'm scared, I'm sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I'm sorry. Its time I fix me. I'm nervous but ima get through this."
Well said! Although Cudi is taking a step back from the limelight, the industry vet promised fans that his upcoming album Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin will still be released — even if he isn't around to promote it. Not to mention, Kid is hoping to be out and performing again by the Complexcon festival, which is held in Long Beach, CA on November 5 and 6.
And it appears as though Scott is stressing about letting his fans down as he concluded:
"Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. I'll be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. I'm sorry."
Hey man, just focus on getting better, m'kay? Be sure to take a look at Kid Cudi's poignant letter in its entirety for yourself (below).
[Image via WENN.]