Home Videos Photos Shop
PerezHilton CocoPerez Justin Bieber Taylor Swift Selena G. Twitter PerezTV

Adele Gloriously Covers Vanity Fair & Reveals Private Battle With Postpartum Depression: 'I Felt Like I'd Made The Worst Decision Of My Life'

| Filed under: Music MinutePolitikDonald TrumpAdeleVanity FairMental HealthFamily

Adele is a glowing goddess in Vanity Fair!

Adele has been known to keep her private life, well private, but starring in Vanity Fair's December issue, the Hello songstress really opened up.

In addition to being praised by Beyoncé and slamming Donald Trump, the 28-year-old went even deeper discussing her family.

As you probably already know, the soulful crooner and her boyfriend, Simon Konecki, welcomed their son, Angelo, three years ago, but it wasn't until now she revealed her battle with postpartum depression!

Related: Adele's BF Surprised Her In The SWEETEST Way Ever!

Speaking on her experience:

"I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me… I didn't talk to anyone about it. I was very reluctant . . . . My boyfriend said I should talk to other women who were pregnant, and I said, ‘F*ck that, I ain't hanging around with a f*ckin' bunch of mothers.' Then, without realizing it, I was gravitating towards pregnant women and other women with children, because I found they're a bit more patient. You'll be talking to someone, but you're not really listening, because you're so f*ckin' tired."

While she says she "snapped" out of it, Adele bravely explained how it made her feel as a parent:

"My knowledge of postpartum—or post-natal, as we call it in England—is that you don't want to be with your child; you're worried you might hurt your child; you're worried you weren't doing a good job. But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I'd made the worst decision of my life… Eventually I just said, I'm going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f*ck I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don't you feel bad?' I said, I do, but not as bad as I'd feel if I didn't do it."

Our hearts! It's horrible she was shamed for doing what she had to for both her sake and her baby's!

The UK native also added how the birth of Angelo also inspired her to stop drinking and smoking:

"Having a hangover with a child is torture. Since I've had my baby, I'm not as carefree as I used to be. I'm scared of a lot of things now because I don't want to die; I want to be around for my kid. I'm very cautious."

Wow.

Adele's candid conversation definitely got deep, but not without also receiving high praise… from Beyoncé:

"It is so easy to talk to her and be around her. She's funny as hell and her comebacks are legendary. The most beautiful thing about Adele is that she has her priorities straight. She is a gracious woman and the most humble human being I've ever met."

Aww!!

And on the complete other hand, the the cover girl spoke on Trump, who she's previously slammed:

"We only know Trump from The Apprentice, so we think a reality star is running for president. I just don't think anybody should be building walls or sh*t like that right now. I think we need to look after each other. Everyone must vote."

Read on for even more HIGHlights from Adele's interview:

On writing music while drunk: "I used to love to be drunk, but as I got more famous I would wake up the next morning and think, 'What the f*ck did I say and who the f*ck did I say it to? I can see from an outsider's perspective that I will never write songs as good as the ones that are on 21, but I'm not as indulgent as I was then, and I don't have time to fall apart like I did then. I was completely off my face writing that album, and a drunk tongue is an honest one. I would drink two bottles of wine, and I would chain-smoke. Then I'd write the lyrics down and the next morning think, 'F*ck, that's quite good.'"
On the pressure to have kids: "I think it's the bravest thing not to have a child; all my friends and I felt pressurized into having kids, because that's what adults do. I love my son more than anything, but on a daily basis, if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the fuck I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that."

On her relationship with Simon: "My life is more important to me than anything I'm doing because how the f*ck am I supposed to write a record if I don't have a life? If I don't have a real life, then it's game over anyway."

On battling depression for most of her life: "I have a very dark side. I'm very available to depression. I can slip in and out of it quite easily. It started when my granddad died, when I was about 10, and while I never had a suicidal thought, I have been in therapy, lots."

Ch-ch-check out more from the British beauty's interview HERE and see her cover and spread in the gallery (above)!

[Image via Tom Munro/Vanity Fair.]

Tags: , , , , , , , ,

MTV VMA Nominations 2017: Snubs, Surprises, & One AWKWARD Feud Face Off!
10 Celebs Accused Of Cocaine Use!
How Kanye West & JAY-Z Went From Best Friends To Frenemies
Things Donald Trump Has Said About Women
Celebs Who've Taken Their Donald Trump Hate To Very Violent Places!
Celebrities Celebrate Father's Day On Social Media!