Judy Garland was so troubled.
A new memoir was released by the Wizard Of Oz star's late husband, Sid Luft, detailing the iconic actress' scary suicide attempts and her dangerous drug dependency.
The book was created from the notes Sid took for his autobiography, which he couldn't complete before he died in 2005.
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Judy's third spouse said that, in the 1950s, the star slit her own throat in their Beverly Hills home because of her deep depression, recalling:
"Judy had cut her throat with a razor blade…. What demons inhabited her soul just when life seemed so rich and productive? It was a gigantic puzzlement that she would poison herself with pills, and that the toxic reaction to whatever she swallowed would create an impulse for self-mutilation."
Doctors ultimately saved her life, but Sid remembered another terrifying attempt years later.
The businessman explained Ms. Garland had cut her wrists while they were staying in a Washington D.C. hotel:
"When Judy came out in her short white lace negligee, her arms were in front of her and she said, 'Look, darling, what I've done!' Her wrists had been slashed and she was bleeding profusely."
Mr. Luft was able to make tourniquets and get his wife to a doctor in time.
In addition to her suicide attempts, Sid also detailed Judy's drug dependency, explain that she took pills to stay "camera ready":
"Whenever she began to drop considerable weight, it was dangerous, signaling an unhealthy use of pills."
He also found plenty evidence of abuse in her bedroom, writing:
"Pills were hidden in packages of cigarettes… The clothes hamper was filled with beer bottles and a vodka bottle all empty."
We're so sad to hear just how much Judy struggled with depression and addiction.
[Image via AP Images.]
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