In The Psych Ward!
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More American Idol related news…..and this one's a doozy!
Season 1 contestant Nikki McKibbin was recently placed under psychiatric observation for 72 hours after suffering a severe breakdown in late February.
According to a police report, Nikki called a friend and told her that she was feeling depressed and wanted to kill herself. The friend called the police who arrived to find the fallen Idol with a number of pills in her hand.
Oh, boy. Not a good thing! She's even got a kid!
Nikki refused to cooperate with the police who came to her rescue and reportedly tried to kick out the windows of the cop car.
Why did she unravel?
Things weren't going well for the American Idol alum. She released an album in May '07 to a lukewarm response from the public. She was then hit with the sudden death of her mother in August.
Times can get tough, but suicide is NEVER the answer, kids.
There is always help out there. Don't be afraid to ask for it!
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Thank you, Perez, for reminding "kids" and everybody that suicide is never the answer. You could be saving a life.
Aww!! I loved her on the first season! Sad news
That fucking whore shouldve just shot her stupid fucking head off. Ages clearly seeking attention, to call someone and say…waa, I'm gonna kill myself. Dumb bitch. Let the stupid people eliminate themselves. Less chance they'll continue to reproduce!
It's called grief!!! My Mom died in October. She was honestly the biggest love of my life outside my own son. Nothing compares to the unconditional love of a mom…and when you lose that love, it is life-altering and devastating. I know, I'm there. You people bashing this poor girl must have never experienced the death of a parent. But unless nature plays a cruel game, you will, so think before you type. Get better, Nikki. You are not alone and your son needs you!
she did ask for help. she called her friend. its not funny to write 'loca' on her picture.
I went with nikki - real name Nikita.
She has always been troubled.
This music thing is definitely addictive. If you don't have the "chops" or control, it will kill you. Sorry to hear about your Mom's passing. This is why I don't like nor watch American Idol. She got a taste of the "life" and that can put you in an alternative reality forgetting about true reality. It's even harder when you return to nothing, your true reality. For those of you who don't understand, it's like a drug dealer or judge for many years, making mad scrilla$$$, then told to work at McDonalds (not that anything is wrong with that…) When your well, hit me up and I'll get some tracks for you. The recording session will be on me. I promise.
I am suicidal. Just yesterday I tried to kill myself, but my aunt talked me out of it. I appreciate your comments about help being out there, but labeling her "loca" I think is a hurtful stigma that doesn't help the situation. I'm not recovering as fast because people are whispering "crazy" behind my back. Don't call her names. Your site is very popular and it won't be conducive to her recovery. Being crazy means the inability to consciously control one's actions, therefore becoming a danger to oneself. Being suicidal means you no longer want to live thereby also endangering oneself. Life can be unbearable sometimes and social ignominy can trigger suicidal tendencies. Some pursue drugs to cope; others seek death. While I realize name calling is part of your brand of humor, in this situation it is grossly inappropriate and ignorant. Proper respect for her situation - especially for her kids- would be good thoughts and prayers, just as you have done for Patrick Swayzee.
I liked her on the show, that is really sad. The entertainment business will chew a person up and spit them out! We should buy her album or at least a song to help her out. What is a song a buck right?
Re: MarkDiddy –
You're entitled to your opinion but Don't pass it off as facts. I LOVE her voice, it was so unique. I could listen to her sing anything.
Why do you say she is crazy just because she is depressed?
you mario are a f'n idiot. you sound like f'n tom cruise. depression is a serious medical condition. not a choice. dumbass… sycophant… pedophile.
Um. OK. I usually read your website when I get home from work, kind of a treat. But now - this has just gone too far. You are digging, Perez. Nikki, this person you are featuring, has gone thru a huge loss, and you are capitalizing on her grief, and her illness.
You'll never read this, I know. But, this has gone too far. Somebody please tell Mario to back off.
All American Idol rejects and winners are headed for the same fate!!!
There's always people who WANT to help, but never people who can actually help.
Sorry for but after reading this I popped in her album and her song "Drowning" is really on point with her current situation. It literally sent a chill down my spine.
and what if there really ISNT anybody to talk to? ….
I love her.
Perez,
Your a fucking loser.
SYG
i expected more respect from you! Don't call her crazy/loca, that's the worst thing you can call someone. It's SO dismissive and doesn't deal with whatever issues she is going through. Maybe people wouldn't be afraid of getting help if they weren't given the label of "la loca".
OMG…I thought you'd be shrieking your gay shriek that your fagulous American Idol contestant got the boot in his skinny booty. I guess the "fiercenss" has been extinguished from the show. Good voice, but sooooo gaygaygay!
Perez, Your treatment of this serious subject is terrible. You post a picture of someone who is suffering from depression and write "Loca" on it? Would you post a picture of a gay man and write "Fag" on it? I'm sure not. You mock people who are ill, yet expect people to respect your own. Don't ever pretend to "care" about Britney's illness when you mock people who suffer from a serious illness. Britney and Nikki's illnesses are as serious as Patrick Swayze's, yet you treat them as though Britney/Nikki chose their illness while Patrick didn't. News flash–depression is a biologically based physical illness that causes mental symptoms. Treat it as such. You have lost all respect in my eyes.
Are you kidding???
You post this story with a big LOCA over her head and then say …"oh kids..there is help for you…"
Get you act together you half wit
Poor girl lost her Mom and is having a hard time with her career and you fucking post her as being crazy …
with all the people that read your column…or whatever you call this…you could be a little for compassionate.
You are such a prick!!!!
Poor girl
You suck ass PErez
Pick on someone your one size
If you can find it
Way to be supportive Perez! If she is suffering from depression, your comments about calling her "Loca" or crazy are not going to help. YOUR comments probably will push her over the edge. And it is not like she is an A-List celebrity. Show some compassion and let her try to put her life back together in piece. At least do it for the sake of her child!
she is a seriously beautiful girl… love it when she smiles.
Perez,
Your day is coming. Every bad thing you say about people will come back to haunt you one day. And when you fall, all of your so called "fans" will disappear! And you will have no one but yourself to blame. Then let's see how many people turn on you and call YOU names and draw d*cks all over YOUR face. Are you man enough to handle it? You will soon become a social pariah!
my brother died because of that…i hope she won't go in the same direction
I just wanted to write this post to say that I have and am suffering from depression and have been suicidal, even up until very recently. I was hospitalized last year b/c I wanted to kill myself. I'm only saying this so that someone else who is reading this knows that they are not alone.
Perez, this girl is depressed and grieving not crazy!
Your nice enough to offer encouragement to people to not kill themselves but then you call those same people crazy!
At least be consistent!
I am so sick of hearing about American Idol
YES THERE IS INDEED HELP OUT THERE FOR THOSE WHO NEED IT. DO YOU KNOW WHAT DOES NOT HELP? POSTING THEIR EMBARRASSING STORY ON THE WORLD WIDE WEB. I'VE BEEN DESPERATELY SAD BEFORE TOO BUT I DIDN'T HAVE YOU POSTING IT EVERYWHERE….WTF?
I dont know how she got so far on Idol. She wasnt a very good singer. Maybe she can be on Celebrity Rehab now.
here you go again perez! This is kinda really personal shit. Although good message re suicide
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Perez…I luv u ur my alternative to paying US magazine or PEOPLE but this girl deserves a break….please give it to her…life sucks sometimes, I am pretty sure that u and I have both been there but one season (especially the first) on American Idol should not do her in…what do u think?
leave it to you to put the words LOCA on someone when they are suffering from a serious problem…you idiot!
Uh real nice support! Her mom just died!!!!! you are such a freak anymore. Just bc she isnt "famous' doesnt mean you cant support her breakdown…just wait till you have one..pride before the fall monkey man!
Maybe she freaked out because the police took her away?
how is that a rescue, handcuffs and a car you cant get out of.
obviously she already feels trapped and an experience like that wouldnt really help.
i dont know if i phoned a friend feeling that way, getting the government involved isnt something i would feel comfortable with, actually i think it would kinda freak me out too.
I love how Perez likes to make fun of others who are having problems. Last time I checked Perez you were an overweight cock sucking, butt fucking attention whore yourself. I am sure when your 15 minutes are up your fat ass will committ suicide!
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Some people never feel the bottomless pit of hopelessness that can hit other people. Only when U have been there, can u feel that the pain that cannot end without death. Later, U realize that there is hope, but when u are caught up in the pain, U can't see it. My prayers are with this woman, kid and all, who had a moment that no one can understand, nor judge. I have been there…. It's not pretty. With help, you always come back. God Bless. Take care of yourself. It's about you right now.
She came to my school last year to promote her CD and everyone hated the music. She acted a little crazy too
Im glad she got help on time
and psyciatrist really can work wonders with people, so I think (hope) she will be okay. The death of her mother must have been devastating, so lets not call her crazy.
tough one. she never made it big and cracked. some people just don't get it that they need to get NORMAL desk jobs and work for a living.
bitch looks like chyna doll
Perez, thank you for caring about Nikki. You give sound advice in a way that makes sense. Thank you.
Well, the psych ward IS the new Rehab, yo.
You know, i saw this coming. She was on a local channell in Dallas talking about her hopes for a new album after her last album got dissed. She was all bug-eyed and creepy like tweaker and shit. totally wierd
i remember thinking 'she's 'gonna end it"
Yah, because seeing her picture with "Loca" hastily written across it on some gossip website is going to make her feel soooooo much better! Where do you fuckheads get off making fun of someone who's obviously depressed? Sorry, but that's just not cool!
Thank God for that friend… YES!!! Don't let depressed people suffer. They always send out signals & silent crys for help, especially woman. Hope she gets better….. Watching Celeb Rehab on VH1, I've more empathy for people fighting mental issues. I nor my family have been affected, but its real & these people need help. If you're sad, talk to someone, there people out there that care. Get well.
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Oh how sad. Be strong for your kid! Can't say I'm surprised tho–she seemed a bit off.
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maybe all that hair dye is leaking into her brain
We have soooo many resources in the US. Thank God for Tipper Gore cuz if she did anything good it was helping destigmafy mental illness. So many people have sympathy for cancers etc. but when it comes to mental illness there's no love though it's just as deadly. Bless her heart she's in my prayers!
Why would you write the spanish word for "crazy" across someone who is suffering mental illness. By pulling that kind of stunt/calling her names you only make her feel less valued. Shame on you.
She's a stupid crack whore bar hopping bitch who thinks that she's someone bc of AI. She's from WT ghetto in arlington. No one cares…and stop hitting on my boyfriend.
Did anyone like her in the first place? After AI, she came back to texas. We were hoping she would go back to being a stripper-mom to her illegitimate child…but NO. She had to start bringing her own "scary-oke" cd's to our local fag bar on certain nights to "entertain" us all. Maybe she had a breakdown because she realized that no one really liked her or the scary-oke whores she hung out with?
Attention whore! Suicide is very simple, and any knucklehead can do it right the first time. If your suicide is not successful, you're either a dumb ass or an attention whore
Depression can be caused by a combination of person's unique chemical makeup being triggered by life events. There are millions of people with depression. (Some of them, like the general population, aren't particularly nice people.)
Depressed people can many times be more kind and compassionate because they understand pain - unlike Perez, who's an ASSHOLE.
I knew Nikki fairly well she was a waitress at the Big Apple restraunt and Bar that I went to about everyday. She was always strung out on something and usually had a excuse of taking pain pills for a toothache. And I got so freaking tired of her singing Me and Bobby Mcgee she would sing it at least 2-3 times a night!
I lost my mom in 2005 and those people who haven't lost a parent yet will never understand how truly heartbreaking it is to lose the person that has been there for you your entire life. Depression hits, you don't want to do anything but lay down and your thoughts are plagued with dark thoughts about how that person is never coming back.
Help is out there but not everyone is willing to accept it at first because they don't think anyone can really help them.
Perez you insensitive, hypocritical, ignorant piece of shit!
You say "Kids suicide is never the answer" and then write "loca" in fat letter above the poor girls picture, let me tell you something; unless you've been to the bottomless pit of depression and mental disease, you will NEVER know or understand, I am in this pit, and in REALITY there is not much help out there, you are ether labeled "loca" by prick doctors and put in a hospital or you are drugged to the point where you cannot recognize yourself in the mirror..do not judge us, we don't choose to have a mental disease or to commit suicide, but there is no place for us in this world. We have just as much right to die as we do to live!
Why is everyone saying such nasty shit about this girl? I saw her on AI rewind and didn't think she was bad at all. At least she can sing LIVE unlike most of the bimbos on the pop charts these days who lipsync all the time and pretend to write their songs (avril). She should do a country album, I always felt her voice was more country than rock. Unfortunately the idol machine does nothing to help them once they are off the show. With all the money Fox makes off these kids they really should do something to help them out when they are having problems.
OMG I thought it was Chyna
it would help if perez didnt call her "loca".people should stop calling other people names,especially if it is a serious situation such as this.
Wow Perez,
I usually feel the need to defend you because I'm a huge fan buuuut, writing LOCA on a photo of a woman who is suffering from a mental illness is just wrong and hurtful to many.
Perhaps you would go a bit LOCA if your mother passed?
But it is nice to see the message at the end. Suicide is not the answer.
YEAH…JUST ASK FOR HELP MY ASS.
U COULD DIAL A 1-800 NUMBER FOR SUICIDE HELP LINE,BUT WHAT GOOD WILL THAT DO A SEVERELY DEPRESSED SUICIDAL PERSON??
CALL AND TRY TO GET INTO A DR. OFFICE,AND THE FIRST QUESTION IS ”DO U HAVE INSURANCE”?OR PAY CLOSE TO $175.00 FOR AN OFFICE VISIT,OR SEE IF U QUALIFY FOR STATE ASSISTANCE ONLY TO BE TOLD U MAKE $31.00 TOO MUCH PER MONTH TO QUALIFY,BUT IF YR AN ILLEGAL ALIEN U GET IT FOR FREE,AND DONT EVEN HAVE TO HAVE STATE ISSUED I.D.,OR U COULD GO TO YR LOCAL EMERGENCY ROOM AND END UP WITH A FEW THOUSAND DOLLARS IN BILLS AND THEN GET HOUNDED TO DEATH BY COLLECTIONS BUREAUS TIL U ACTUALLY DO COMMIT SUICIDE…..I THINK THATS WHY SO MANY PEOPLE DO ILLICIT DRUGS..CAUSE THERES NO OTHER AFFORDABLE CURE FOR THEM…EVEN IF U DO GET PRESCRIBED ANTI-DEPRESSANTS/PSYCHOTICS,ETC..WHO CAN AFFORD TO MAINTAIN TREATMENT AND RE-FILLS???? WAL-MART DOESNT CARRY ALOT OF POPULARILY PRESCRIBED $4.00 GENERICS BECAUSE THE DRUGS THAT REALLY WORK DONT MAKE THEM IN GENERIC FORM.
Perez, I hope you will read this….I am a huge fan….but don't you realize the mixed message you are sending while, in the SAME POST, you encourage those who are struggeling with mental health issues to reach out and get help……and then when someone actually DOES EXACTLY THAT….you scribble "Loca" on their photo….????
am i crazy or does she look exactly like chyna doll?
HA! She DID always sing that stupid ME AND BOBBY MCGEE song, even shen she worked at Buck N Loons in arlington off Cooper street like 7 years ago before AI. Stick with what you THINK you are good at. Aparently, she wasnt too good at anything. Motherhood, singing, killing herself. Total failure.
Why do you think they are "afraid to ask for it" ie ; help.
Cuz pukes like you will exploit their problems for your own bizarre putrid fascination. And fucking masochistic weirdos like me will read it and laugh.
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she called a true friend. thankfully her friend didn't think that was just mt talk. i hope she gets the help she needs. In the last yr. I've known two people to successfully attempt suicide and one that was unsuccessful twice. Giving up is NEVER the answer!
I just finished reading a beautifully written book about depression called "The Noonday Demon." Anyone wanting to learn & understand more should read it.
The mean, nasty, ignorant people who've commented on this thread could learn a lot.
But since they don't care, I REALLY recommend it to those who know a little something about the subject already.
I live in the same area as Nikki. She is a mess! She is a waitress at a dive biker bar in Arlington TX called Hot Rods and Hogs. I saw her waiting tables and did not recognize her. She looked about 40 and was so spastic that we actually thought she had tourrets syndrome. We all felt sorry for her until our waitress told us that is was Nikki Mckibbin and that she was strung out on crystal meth. It's really sad. She's not gonna make it.
Perez you should kill yourself. You live off of people who are far more successful than you. You're fat and you look like a goddamn monkey for christs sakes. Ugh! I can't stand your fucking face it makes me want to fucking die.
I don't know why I bother to come on this site anymore. But I agree with everyone that commented on depression not defining someone as crazy. Depression is a very serious mental illness, there are various degrees of it and more people suffer from it than you all realize. And anyone that is saying she should have killed herself is an asshole. I battled with suicidal thoughts as a young teenager, tried it once with a razor and fortunately for me, it scared me enough to realize that it wasn't the answer to my problems. I also had an uncle that was manic depressive and he did indeed succeed in suicide. His family is now more screwed up than ever before because of it, especially the oldest and youngest. And it makes me angry that people are quick to say nsty things about drug addicts. Addiction is also an illness and no one deserves to be treated like dirt because they have a problem. Yes, there is help but a person needs to realize they have a problem and need help before any treatment can begin. It seems to be that she was reaching out for help when she called her friend. I wish her well and hope she can get herself straightened out for her and for her son.
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This is sad to see this happen, it also shows that perez hilton has it in for britney spears, because the same thing happened to her and he made fun of her, now this girl does it and he's sad. How do u sleep at night?
HAHAHAHA I THOUGHT THAT WAS CHINA DOLL AFTER REHAB (HER "NEW LOOK")!!!!! ITS NOT FUNNY SHE HAD A BREAK DOWN THOUGH (NIKKI)
oh my god that is SO sad …. "I want to live with my mom up in heaven" that brought tears to my eyes … good wishes to her and her family
people all of you should realize what a short life we lead!!!! all of this nonsense is just entertainment for the lonesome!!! that is why we log on and go to read about ppl we don't know!! We try to relate our miseralble lives w/ the rich and famous or just well known. This is just pathetic on our behalf if u ask me!
Aww. That's a damn shame. I liked her on AI. If she's truly into meth, she has a tough road ahead of her.
i love you, but seriously? "there's help out there… ask for it." she DID, asshat. she reached out to a friend, &she probably knew that friend could be trusted to get real help; doesn't mean she wouldn't be resistant when push came to shove. because i'm sure she suspected that the minute she was in observation, people like you would not only report it like it was news, but also put pictures of her with "loca" on her head. too far, perez. for real.