Judy Garland was so troubled.
A new memoir was released by the Wizard Of Oz star's late husband, Sid Luft, detailing the iconic actress' scary suicide attempts and her dangerous drug dependency.
The book was created from the notes Sid took for his autobiography, which he couldn't complete before he died in 2005.
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Judy's third spouse said that, in the 1950s, the star slit her own throat in their Beverly Hills home because of her deep depression, recalling:
"Judy had cut her throat with a razor blade…. What demons inhabited her soul just when life seemed so rich and productive? It was a gigantic puzzlement that she would poison herself with pills, and that the toxic reaction to whatever she swallowed would create an impulse for self-mutilation."
Doctors ultimately saved her life, but Sid remembered another terrifying attempt years later.
The businessman explained Ms. Garland had cut her wrists while they were staying in a Washington D.C. hotel: