Last May we told you about model Noemie Lenoir and her struggle with depression.
Noemie was found in forest near the Paris home of her boyfriend at the time, unconscious after allegedly mixing alcohol and pills, and was rushed to the hospital.
A few months later she started modeling again.
And now almost a year later, Noemie is ready to talk about her awful ordeal. Reveals the lingerie model:
“Last May, I did something really, really stupid. I had been living in New York and I moved back to Paris, to try again with the father of my son."
Noemie has a 6-year-old son with her footballer ex-beau, Claude Makélélé. She adds:
"It was a big change. I wasn't so healthy in Paris… I couldn't find a gym, and exercise is important to me because I am very hyper. I came straight from New York to living in Claude's house, and I really wanted it to work, and it didn't work out. He hurt me… so I decided… I don't know how to say this. It was like a bad, bad depression, a very deep depression. I felt really alone.
It wasn't just like, 'I'm here, don't ignore me.' Nothing like that. I really thought I wanted… I decided to… "
And to answer the question of how she could consider killing herself and leaving her baby behind, she reveals:
"People say, 'How could she do it, how could she try and kill herself, didn't she think about her son?' But they don't understand. I love my son so much. But I didn't think I was good enough, I thought I was poison. Poison for me and poison for him. When I was depressed I felt like I was poisoning his life by being in it. I thought he would be better with his dad and my mum to look after him. I didn't realise I was hurting anyone, until I woke up in the hospital and saw my mum crying."
Thankfully, we're glad to report that Noemie says she's feeling much better, physically and emotionally.
[Image via WENN.]