Cyndi Lauper is not immune to depression, just like everyone else.
Except her's went a little further than just the blues — she's opening up about a deep depression she sank into after a career break in the late eighties. She even considered killing herself.
In a new memoir, Cyndi talks about her rise from poverty and a violent upbringing to pop stardom and then falling into depression after her success died down while living in a hotel room in New York City.
Here's what she said:
“I had come so far but felt like I had failed. I disappointed the record company because I didn’t come home with an armful of awards like they expected. It was always like that; it was never enough. It was such a dark time for me. When I was living in that hotel I was two steps off of that balcony.
"I would go to the studio and then sit in my dark room and drink vodka. I had to spend most of my time alone. I was grieving. I thought the sadness would never go away. The only thing that always prevented me from suicide is that I never wanted a headline to read, ‘Girl who wanted to have fun just didn’t’.”
That sounds pretty dire to us… so what helped her out of it?
It helped her come to terms with her traumatic childhood and everything she had endured as a runaway teen.
Her violent step-father threatened to rape both Cyndi and her sister, and that she left home at 17 after she caught him spying on her while she was in the bath. She ran away to NYC afterwards.
So sad, but we are so HAPPY she is where she is now!
Glad you're okay, Cyndi!
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