Russell Brand has been clean and sober for more than a decade. That's amazing, and truly something that should be celebrated.
The thing is, once you hit milestones, it doesn't get any easier. It's something you have to battle for the rest of your life, and even Russell admits that he even will crave heroin and crack when things are tough.
Here's what he said about the struggle:
"The last time I thought about taking heroin was yesterday. I had received 'an inconvenient truth' from a beautiful woman… She told me she was pregnant and it wasn't mine. I had to take immediate action. I put Morrissey on in my car as an external conduit for the surging melancholy and as I wound my way through the neurotic Hollywood hills the narrow lanes."
This resulted in an urge for drugs, which was stopped by a contact of his that helps him through addiction. Kinda like a sponsor!
"I think of places I could score (buy drugs). Off Santa Monica (in California) there's a homeless man who I know uses gear. I could find him, buy him a bag if he takes me to score. I'd leave him on the corner, a couple of rocks, a couple of $20 bags pressed into my sweaty palm… I am reaching for my phone.
"I call someone not a doctor or a sage not a mystic or a physician, just a bloke like me, another alcoholic, who I know knows how I feel. The phone rings and I half hope he'll just let it ring out. It's 4am in London. He's asleep, he can't hear the phone, he won't pick up. I indicate left, heading to Santa Monica. The ringing stops, then the dry mouthed nocturnal mumble 'Hello. You alright mate?' He picks up. And for another day, thank God, I don't have to."
This is terrifying, but he should still be proud that he called his friend at all. That effort made all the difference, and it would've been much easier just not to do it — but he did!
It's such a shame that he has to go through this, but we know he has it in him to keep up with what he's built over the past ten years!
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