The truth is finally coming out!
Two days before Carrie Fisher boarded the Holland America Eurodam cruise ship, where she experienced a bipolar episode, she's now revealing that she had a nightmare.
During her scary dream, the actress said that an armed militia was waiting inside the boat, but instead of not getting on the ship, she calmly warned her assistant that she didn't have to go, but she did.
However, despite her crazzzy dream, Fisher felt that the show had to go on, so she boarded the boat anyway… not knowing that she would later have a bipolar incident that would hit YouTube.
While Carrie already acknowledged that she was in a maniac state, she added that she didn't know what she was doing during her performance and knew that she was delusional, but was just trying to survive.
"There are different versions of a manic state, and normally they're not as extreme as this became. I've only had this happen one other time, 15years ago, so I didn't have a plan of action. That time I was in a [psychiatric] hospital, and I was being talked to by the television, hallucinating. I wasn't inside the TV this time, thank God. [But] I was in big trouble.
[On the cruise] I wasn't sleeping. I was writing on everything. I was writing in books; I would have written on walls. I literally would bend over and be writing on the ground and [my assistant] would try to talk to me, and I would be unable to respond. That was what I spent my teenage years doing: handwrite, handwrite, handwrite to the point where I'm running out of ink. I can't wait to see what I wrote. I don't know what the hell it says. I do know this – and it was really bizarre – I was trapped in a metaphor. Everything I looked at had a meaning. Everything was a warning or a sign. I was in a part of my brain I've only been in one time before."
Oh man! Miz Fisher was really going through some thangs!
Fortunately though, the 56-year-old star is doing a lot better and is getting some well-deserved downtime.
We just hope she doesn't try to bounce back into performing soon because a bipolar episode is nothing to play around with!!
[Image via FayesVision/WENN.]
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