"It's hard to move on every day and be positive when there's something that's so horribly devastating. It's just something that I pray to God every day for the strength to deal with cause it's hard. There are days where I can't even get out of bed.
John's my brother, we practically lived together and I just remember finding out about how bad everything was. It's still hard for me to think about it. I pray every day that I will be able to deal with it. It's still at this point it's too much to think about. It's something that I carry with me every day.
I've reached out and tried but at this point I'm not allowed to visit John.
I really learned a lot about detaching myself from my ego. I realized that sitting in solitary confinement in a shirt that wasn’t mine, no clothes, nothing that was in there was mine except my hands, and my hair and myself … and I realized that I was still the same person without the house that I lived in or the car that I drove or the clothes that I wore. I realized that I’m still the same person."
We hope he learned a valuable lesson.
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