This is really sad, but also, not surprising.
Teen Mom's Amber Portwood is opening up about her struggles with mental illness.
The mom, who just earlier this week was seen on a video fighting with a complete stranger at an IHOP, and has dealt with domestic abuse issues herself, explains her diagnosis of extreme bipolar and disassociative disorder.
"I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder three years ago. I struggle with it. I hate it. I grieve over it. When I went to rehab for two months, they diagnosed me with disassociative disorder too, which makes me black out. People don't understand what it's like."
She also explains the fight that was on caught on tape:
"I was with Mike (her new boyfriend), and yes, we did go have a couple of drinks. But I was not drunk. We were sitting by ourselves, laughing and talking and my legs were up on his, just having a good time. Suddenly, I hear this couple make these racist comments.
I looked over and said, 'Excuse me, but why are you starting drama? Please do everyone a favor and keep your comments to yourself.'"
When the comments didn't stop, that's what pushed her over the edge. She continues:
"So that's when I got up and told her to shut her f–king mouth.
I'm sick and tired of people bashing me every time I leave my house. When I go out, I mind my own business, but people try to fight me and get me going because I guess they think I'm most famous for fighting Gary. I get picked on every time I go out in public. I just want to be a normal 21-year-old. I do my duties, I take care of my child. Yes, I did hit Gary, and what people saw was an angry Amber who reacted to the father of her child telling her he had cheated on her.
People pick on me just to see if I'll fight them. They think I'm this hard person, but I'm not! I'm a good person. I love my friends. I love people…I just want people to know that people change. I'm doing really well. I'm happy. Yes, I am on an MTV show, but I deserve a normal life, too. People need to realize that the show, Teen Mom, is on TV just to help others not make the same mistakes. That's it."
We know it's hard, but those are the consequences of starring on a reality show and airing your dirty laundry.
We just hope that Amber gets the help she so desperately needs and can learn to deal with problems without fighting.
[Image via Ramey Pix.]
Tags: amber portwood, bipolar, disassociative disorder, fighting, gary shirley, mental illness, teen mom