Lindsay Lohan may be safely “ensconced in the bosom” of the Betty Ford Center, where she’ll (hopefully) be serving the remainder of her 90 day, court-ordered rehab sentence in lieu of jail for her latest probation violation with little to no drama, but that doesn’t mean gurlfriend isn’t still finding ways to make it into the news!
And believe us, this one is a DOOZY!
Last month, the actress sat down for an INTENSELY in-depth, no-holds-barred interview with Piers Morgan about her bad reputation, drug use, countless legal and personal problems, her, ahem, ‘strained’ relationship with father Michael Lohan, and even her time with Samantha Ronson!
Seriously! No stone goes left un-turned!
And even if we have a hard time believing that she’s only done cocaine “four or five times,” and shake our head sadly when she STILL maintains that she doesn’t belong in rehab, can stop drinking whenever she wants, and would rather repent by working with children in other countries, we’re glad to at least see that she’s attempting to reflect on her life choices and went into this latest program with a positive attitude!
But don’t take our word for it!
So, Lindsay, how are you?
I├óΓé¼Γäóm good, thank you (lights another cigarette).
The Parent Trap turned you into a huge movie star at a very young age. If I had the power to take you back in time and say to you, ├óΓé¼╦£Lindsay, you failed that audition and you├óΓé¼Γäóre not going to be a movie star after all├óΓé¼Γäó, would you take that option, after all you├óΓé¼Γäóve been through?
I would have been so angry!
But would your life have been better?
No, I believe things happen for a reason.
You don├óΓé¼Γäót regret anything?
No, I live without regrets. There are certain things I have done, mistakes that I made, that I would change, but I don├óΓé¼Γäót regret them at all, because I├óΓé¼Γäóve learnt from them.
Does fame screw you up?
Yes, I think to a certain extent. But it comes with the territory, so I can├óΓé¼Γäót complain about it.
Is it like a drug?
(Laughs) I don├óΓé¼Γäót know that it├óΓé¼Γäós like a drug, but in some ways it can be like that, because it├óΓé¼Γäós addictive. I├óΓé¼Γäóm at my happiest when I├óΓé¼Γäóm on a movie set. It├óΓé¼Γäós like therapy for me.
Your early life was chaotic ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ your dad Michael was a Wall Street trader who took a lot of drugs and alcohol.
Yes, it was chaos. It would be good for a few months, and then it would get chaotic again. It was like walking on eggshells when my father was around.
I├óΓé¼Γäóve met your dad├óΓé¼┬ª He was charming.
I know ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ that├óΓé¼Γäós what├óΓé¼Γäós scary about him!
He├óΓé¼Γäós said that his own father had a big problem with alcohol.
My dad did drugs more.
Yes. He won├óΓé¼Γäót change. I just think there comes a point where you just kind of have to accept what it is. Whenever I do try to bring him back into my life, he creates chaos for me and uses it to his advantage. He├óΓé¼Γäós been really good and then really crazy my whole life.
I was never afraid of him, but my younger siblings (her sister Ali, 19, and brothers Michael, 25, and Dakota (├óΓé¼╦£Cody├óΓé¼Γäó), 16) were terrified. My first instinct was to always make sure they and my mum were OK.
Was your dad ever physically abusive to you or your siblings?
Never me, but he threw a TV remote at my brother├óΓé¼Γäós head. That was pretty scary.
How did all this affect you?
It was depressing. I was being pulled in different directions all the time and never had time to just sit and relax. Therapy helped.
When did you first go to therapy?
Around 13. I wanted to talk to someone. I didn├óΓé¼Γäót want to burden Mum with everything.
When did you have your first drink?
I was 17.
Did you like it?
No, I got really sick and Mum made me sleep with vomit still on me so I├óΓé¼Γäód understand how it felt. I didn├óΓé¼Γäót drink again throughout high school. I was too scared!
And no drugs at that stage?
No, no, no.
So you were a clean-living teenager?
Yes. My friends and I would actually pretend to be drunk. And it was more fun. I never rebelled against my parents ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ I worked hard, I was responsible and I didn├óΓé¼Γäót go to high-school parties.
When did you start going off the rails?
I think when I made the move to LA in my late teens. I got arrested for my first DUI (Driving Under the Influence) when I was 20 and they found me with drugs (her Mercedes struck a kerb outside a club on May 26, 2007, and she was charged after police found cocaine in the car). And from then on the press were on me all the time. It was the first time I├óΓé¼Γäód taken drugs; I was out in a club with people I shouldn├óΓé¼Γäót have been with, and took cocaine, and got in the car. It was so stupid.
How many times have you taken cocaine?
Everyone thinks I├óΓé¼Γäóve done it so many times. But I├óΓé¼Γäóve only done it maybe four or five times in my life.
Yes, I don├óΓé¼Γäót like it. It reminds me of my dad. I took it four times in a period from about the age of 20 to 23, and I got caught twice.
Did it make you feel good?
No. I felt a little too buzzed ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ it made me feel uncomfortable.
People will find it hard to believe you├óΓé¼Γäóve only taken it four times.
It├óΓé¼Γäós the truth. I├óΓé¼Γäóve never taken heroin either, never injected myself with anything, never done LSD. Those things all scare me.
What other drugs have you tried?
Pot, obviously. And ecstasy. I liked that better than the others (giggles). I didn├óΓé¼Γäót drink on it, so I was just chilling. It├óΓé¼Γäós something that a lot of people experience when they├óΓé¼Γäóre in college. I just should have known that being in the public eye, someone was bound to say something or try to make some money off it.
So suddenly it├óΓé¼Γäós all going horribly wrong for you. You├óΓé¼Γäóre 20 years old and you├óΓé¼Γäóve gone from brilliantly successful young actress to crazy party girl ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ what is that doing to your head?
I wanted to ignore it. That├óΓé¼Γäós what got me in trouble. I didn├óΓé¼Γäót want to listen to anyone. I didn├óΓé¼Γäót trust anyone.
Not even your mother?
She kept telling me to leave LA and come back home to New York. I should have listened to her. But I didn├óΓé¼Γäót want to be in New York because my dad was there.
Do you blame him for what happened to you?
No, I don├óΓé¼Γäót blame anyone but myself. I just didn├óΓé¼Γäót want him in my life at that point because he was causing chaos. He wasn├óΓé¼Γäót being a father. I even caught him cheating on Mum once, at his mother├óΓé¼Γäós place.
You caught your dad cheating on your mum?
Yes. He├óΓé¼Γäód disappeared for five days, so I asked Mum if we could go to my grandmother├óΓé¼Γäós house and see if he was there. I got out of the car when we arrived and I saw him diving into the pool with some woman. So I ran into the house and checked her ID to see who she was. I remember running back to the car, feeling sick. I didn├óΓé¼Γäót tell Mum until we got home. That woman was the one he had a secret child with, which came out in the press recently.
Your dad was drinking, taking drugs, womanising. It must have been a horrible thing for a daughter to witness?
Yes. The one thing that upset me the most when it happened was when he recorded me telling him about an argument I had with Mum. Mum and I never argued ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ this was only the second time we├óΓé¼Γäód ever had a real fight. And then he recorded me talking about it, and gave it to the media. And it created such an untrue, hurtful picture of my relationship with my mother. It broke my heart. Mum tried so hard to keep things civil with my dad, but nothing worked.
Is he unstable?
He definitely needs to see a therapist. He went to rehab once but got kicked out. That├óΓé¼Γäós one thing that├óΓé¼Γäós never happened to me!
Do you drink a lot?
Not really. I├óΓé¼Γäóve never been a huge drinker. I├óΓé¼Γäóve never woken up in the morning and had a drink.
So you├óΓé¼Γäóre not a big drinker, don├óΓé¼Γäót take a lot of drugs ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ why do you need rehab?
This is where it gets hard for me to explain. I don├óΓé¼Γäót think there├óΓé¼Γäós anything wrong with people taking time to just be by themselves. I think people want to see me do that. They will keep saying the same things about me if I don├óΓé¼Γäót. I don├óΓé¼Γäót think it will be a bad thing for me to be away with myself for three months.
Do you think you personally need this treatment, for physical or psychological reasons?
I don├óΓé¼Γäót think I need to be on lockdown for three months. I don├óΓé¼Γäót think that├óΓé¼Γäós rehab.
How often have you been in rehab?
I├óΓé¼Γäóve been court-ordered to do it six times. I could write the book on rehab. Constantly sending me to rehab is pointless. The first few times I was court-ordered to rehab it was like a joke, like killing time.
Like school detention?
Yes. They just asked me the same old questions I├óΓé¼Γäód answered before.
Do you actually want to do this rehab you├óΓé¼Γäóre about to start?
I look at it as a good thing. I can come back afterwards and be fully focused on work. But I think there are other things I could do instead of going to a rehab centre that would benefit me more. The best thing they could do for me would be to make me go abroad to different countries and work with children.
You├óΓé¼Γäóve never had it voluntarily?
Once. I went when I was doing a movie called I Know Who Killed Me, and I hadn├óΓé¼Γäót been drinking for a year at that point, but I was having really bad nightmares and the movie was pretty traumatising. So I stayed in a facility so I could get some sleep and talk about it with someone the next day, because it was overwhelming. But I would leave every day and just sleep there at night. I liked that. It was kind of like having my own live-in therapist, because I was having crazy nightmares and I was having AA meetings on set and stuff. It really helped.
AA meetings? So you├óΓé¼Γäóre an alcoholic?
No. I don├óΓé¼Γäót think so. But when I was younger I was definitely going out too much and I was drinking too much. I was accused of everything, even stealing a necklace. I├óΓé¼Γäód never steal a necklace. They didn├óΓé¼Γäót show the real in-store video tape to anyone, because that shows the store attendant putting it on me and me taking out cash to pay for it, and she├óΓé¼Γäós saying, ├óΓé¼╦£No, you can just bring it back tomorrow.├óΓé¼Γäó So, there├óΓé¼Γäós like a slew of things that have gone on like that which have been such a strain.
If you were being hyper-self-critical, what would you say?
I think my two DUIs were totally irresponsible ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ a stupid mistake├óΓé¼┬ª Everyone thinks I├óΓé¼Γäóm this crazy drug addict who shows up late to everything and behaves so badly. But I├óΓé¼Γäóm not. I├óΓé¼Γäóm bad with timing. I always panic when people rush me. I├óΓé¼Γäóm like, ├óΓé¼╦£I├óΓé¼Γäóll be there half an hour early if you just give me my space and don├óΓé¼Γäót call me every five seconds.├óΓé¼Γäó
Do you know what your sexuality really is?
Yes. I like boys.
Do you think you├óΓé¼Γäóre bisexual?
Not really. I like being in a relationship with a guy. But there├óΓé¼Γäós something just different about it with a woman. When I was with Samantha (Ronson), I didn├óΓé¼Γäót want to leave, because I didn├óΓé¼Γäót want to be alone. It was very toxic. And her family controlled anything she did.
Were you in love with her?
I still love her as a person.
But were you IN love with her?
I think there was a point when I was.
So you├óΓé¼Γäóre probably straight?
No, I know I├óΓé¼Γäóm straight. I have made out with girls before, and I had a relationship with a girl. But I think I needed to experience that and I think I was looking for something different.
When was the last time you took a drug?
(Long pause) Probably a year ago├óΓé¼┬ª some pot. But I├óΓé¼Γäóm not a stoner.
Did you take it a lot?
No. I have severe ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). I can├óΓé¼Γäót stand still. So I take Adderall (a prescription drug) for that, it calms me. I know people who take it to stay up, or girls who take it to supposedly stay slim because it kills your appetite. But I eat all the time. I just take it to stay calm. It works well for me.
Are you on any other medication?
Trazodone (a tranquilliser) if I├óΓé¼Γäóve been travelling and can├óΓé¼Γäót sleep from jet lag. But in small doses, I├óΓé¼Γäóm not a pill-popper.
When you were drinking too much, what would you have?
I├óΓé¼Γäód have vodka soda or vodka Red Bull, but the Red Bull would keep me up all night and I├óΓé¼Γäód get heart palpitations. I can├óΓé¼Γäót drink it any more. I never liked the taste of it, anyway.
From all you├óΓé¼Γäóve told me, if it├óΓé¼Γäós the truth, I don├óΓé¼Γäót get a picture of the crazy messed-up junkie I read about all the time.
I├óΓé¼Γäóve never been a junkie, and never will be. I just like going out late to clubs with friends and listening to music. Always have done. It├óΓé¼Γäós not that unusual for girls of 26!
Can you give up drinking?├óΓé¼Γäó
Yes, I├óΓé¼Γäóm fine with that. I don├óΓé¼Γäót drink every day. Heath Ledger (who died from a prescription drugs overdose in 2008) told me to give it up for a year because he├óΓé¼Γäód just done that, and so I did and it wasn├óΓé¼Γäót a problem for me. I didn├óΓé¼Γäót miss it, I felt good. That├óΓé¼Γäós not to say that years from now I won├óΓé¼Γäót have a glass of wine at a dinner, but I├óΓé¼Γäód rather not drink and just focus on work.
Everyone assumes you├óΓé¼Γäóre always drinking. You├óΓé¼Γäóve become a one-woman rumourville.
Right, even the judges believe the rumours. That├óΓé¼Γäós the problem.
Who in Hollywood has been good to you?
Meryl Streep was nice. She just advised me on my acting and what I needed to do differently, and she told me I needed to go back to live with my mum for a while.
But you didn├óΓé¼Γäót?
I couldn├óΓé¼Γäót by then. I wasn├óΓé¼Γäót allowed to leave the state of California because of the court orders. I was trapped by my probation requirements in the worst-possible place I could be. Jamie Lee Curtis was very kind to me, too. She also told me to listen to good advice and to get rid of the hangers-on.
Are you seeing anyone now?
Apparently, I├óΓé¼Γäóm dating my friend Mo, a producer.
No, I kind of was for a minute but it wasn├óΓé¼Γäót the right timing and so we├óΓé¼Γäóre still friends. And we kind of knew that. I├óΓé¼Γäóve been seeing this other guy but he├óΓé¼Γäós away right now. I├óΓé¼Γäóll see him next week. I don├óΓé¼Γäót know, I├óΓé¼Γäóm not concerned about being in a relationship right now. I want to work for a year and then eventually settle down and have children and a husband.
What was the happiest moment of your life?
The day I got the Parent Trap role. I was so happy.
And the unhappiest?
The day I had to turn myself in to jail, and I had to see my mum├óΓé¼Γäós face. I spent 12 days inside and I felt utter shock and cried for four days straight.
You├óΓé¼Γäóre about to go into rehab and have three months to sort yourself out ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ do you think you will?
Yes. Being in New York has helped me. Just being with my family more, and being able to walk around and have more of a life.