You probably best know Zosia Mamet as the bubbly Shoshanna Shapiro on Girls. But as much as she makes us laugh on her hit HBO series, Zosia is now opening up about a very serious subject matter.
The 26-year-old actress penned her own column in the new issue of Glamour to discuss her struggles with an eating disorder.
“Do you have a secret? Is your secret something that could kill you, a silent gnawing feeling that’s slowly melting you away, little by little, something deadly that nobody else can see? Mine is. And it is this: I’ve struggled with an eating disorder since I was a child. This struggle has been mostly a private one, a war nobody knew was raging inside me. I tried to fight it alone for a long time. And I nearly died.”
She goes on to explain just how hard it├óΓé¼Γäós been throughout her life to see herself as the beautiful girl and now woman that she is!
“I was told I was fat for the first time when I was 8. I’m not fat; I’ve never been fat. But ever since then, there has been a monster in my brain that tells me I am ├óΓé¼ΓÇ¥ that convinces me my clothes don’t fit or that I’ve eaten too much. At times it has forced me to starve myself, to run extra miles, to abuse my body. As a teenager I used to stand in front of the refrigerator late at night staring into that white fluorescent light, debilitated by the war raging inside me: Whether to give in to the pitted hunger in my stomach or close the door and go back to bed. I would stand there for hours, opening and closing the door, taking out a piece of food then putting it back in; taking it out, putting it in my mouth, and then spitting it into the garbage.”
It wasn├óΓé¼Γäót until Zosia├óΓé¼Γäós father, playwright David Mamet, stepped in that she finally got the help she so desperately needed.
Zosia goes on to admit:
“My dad eventually got me into treatment. He came home one night from a party, took me by the shoulders, and said, ‘You’re not allowed to die.’ It was the first time I realized this wasn’t all about me. I didn’t care if I died, but my family did. That’s the thing about these kinds of disorders: They’re consuming; they make you egocentric; they’re all you can see.├óΓé¼┬¥
Mamet concludes her column with a call for the media to change the ideal of the human body, specifically for women. Because the public├óΓé¼Γäós perception of what├óΓé¼Γäós beautiful and what├óΓé¼Γäós not is seriously distorted from reality!
We can├óΓé¼Γäót express how proud we are of you, Miz Mamet! It takes a lot of courage to write something this candid. And we know your words are going to help a lot of young people out there who might be struggling with the same issues you did for so long!
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