We bet a lot of people can relate to Ellie Goulding‘s struggle!
In a piece for Stylist magazine, Ellie opened up on her difficult battle with anxiety disorder. The brave interview comes on the heels of Ms. Goulding taking a month off from touring after being diagnosed with exhaustion in July.
Now that the singer is doing a bit better (she’s currently promoting her song for Bridget Jones’s Baby), she was able to discuss what trigged her emotional slump.
According to the hit maker, constant touring and being overly “emotionally aware” put her in a very vulnerable position:
“Since I was young I remember being quite emotionally aware. I could tune in to how I was feeling and understand if I was being irrational, or understand if I was overthinking something. Overthinking can destroy you. I was diagnosed with exhaustion a couple of months back, but it’s only now that I realise how bad it really was. When I think back to my tiredness, my slump, not wanting to exercise and not being interested in anything… It wasn’t depression, it was just my body giving up.”
Well, overthinking often leads to anxiety… it’s unfortunately pretty common!
The entertainer then went on to describe the low point of her condition, revealing:
“It was most severe at the start of my career because of the pressures and scrutiny that come with what I do. It was quite a weird existence to try and adjust to. I’d have panic attacks and to me, they felt like I was dying of a heart attack. It’s a very hot, burning feeling, like your heart is racing uncontrollably. Which is extra scary for me because I actually have a heart defect [Ellie revealed she had a heart condition in October last year]. But I get panicky because I think a lot. I believe people who think a lot and care a lot about things have an extra bit of weight to carry.”
What a scary situation. We can’t imagine what it must be like to have anxiety AND a heart condition!
Luckily for the 29-year-old, her fame has provided her a platform to discuss mental health:
“Too many people are quiet about mental health. When you feel anxiety, it’s a very lonely feeling. It makes you think you’re the only person in the world feeling that way. I want people to know they’re not alone. I’m such a strong person in so many ways and that’s how I’ve ended up doing what I do because I’ve just been f***ing strong and not let anybody get me down. But in a way, all of us have a very young person inside of us who just wants to be looked after. I’m not immune from anxiety because I’ve got a good career or a nice house. That’s not how it works. You could be at any point in your life, any stage of your journey and get anxiety. It’s just part of being human.”
So true! Anxiety is a very “human” experience… there’s no shame in it.
Here’s to hoping Ellie stays healthy for the rest of 2016 — we’re rooting for her!
[Image via Stylist Magazine.]