Lady GaGa is an open book.
Only a day after the Million Reasons singer revealed her battle with PTSD, the A-lister once again opened up about her life with the mental illness — only this time in a letter for her Born This Way Foundation‘s website.
After wrestling with how she wanted to articulate her struggles to her fans, the American Horror Story actress penned:
“After five years of searching for the answers to my chronic pain and the change I have felt in my brain, I am finally well enough to tell you. There is a lot of shame attached to mental illness, but it’s important that you know that there is hope and a chance for recovery.
It is a daily effort for me, even during this album cycle, to regulate my nervous system so that I don’t panic over circumstances that to many would seem like normal life situations. Examples are leaving the house or being touched by strangers who simply want to share their enthusiasm for my music.”
Of course, many thought GaGa’s PTSD diagnosis was linked to the rape she experienced when the Bad Romance artist was only 19-years-old. However, the 30-year-old has since noted that her sexual assault isn’t the only reason she suffers from the disorder. She continued:
“I also struggle with triggers from the memories I carry from my feelings of past years on tour when my needs and requests for balance were being ignored. I was overworked and not taken seriously when I shared my pain and concern that something was wrong. I ultimately ended up injured on the Born This Way Ball. That moment and the memory of it has changed my life forever. The experience of performing night after night in mental and physical pain ingrained in me a trauma that I relive when I see or hear things that remind me of those days.”
In regards to how her mental illness affects her daily life, the hitmaker added:
“I also experience something called dissociation which means that my mind doesn’t want to relive the pain so ‘I look off and I stare’ in a glazed over state…My body is in one place and my mind in another. It’s like the panic accelerator in my mind gets stuck and I am paralyzed with fear.”
Obviously, this occurrence hits the A-lister hard and causes her to lose the ability to speak and go into a depressed state. According to GaGa, she is unable to function normally as she shared:
“It’s harder to do my job. It’s harder to do simple things like take a shower.”
Thankfully, the pop star has quite the support system she can lean on during her tough times. Most recently, GaGa’s ex-fianc├â┬⌐ Taylor Kinney stood by his former flame as he posed for a pic (below) with the NY native’s momma at a charity event for the BTW Foundation.
At 30 Rockefeller center my charity the @btwfoundation also offers a place to send kind letters to people. @taylorkinney111 and my mom sent letters filled with kind words to soldiers fighting overseas. #ShareKindnessA photo posted by xoxo, Joanne (@ladygaga) on Dec 5, 2016 at 9:10am PST
Awwww! The famed diva even concluded:
“I am a strong and powerful woman who is aware of the love I have around me from my team, my family and friends, my doctors and from my incredible fans who I know will never give up on me. I will never give up on my dreams of art and music. I am continuing to learn how to transcend this because I know I can. If you relate to what I am sharing, please know that you can too… I believe that the most inexpensive and perhaps the best medicine in the world is words. Kind words├óΓé¼┬ªpositive words├óΓé¼┬ªwords that help people who feel ashamed of an invisible illness to overcome their shame and feel free.”
Well said. We bet, thanks to Lady GaGa’s candor, some Little Monsters out there are feeling particularly inspired.
[Image via WENN.]