Lamar Odom is putting it all out there.
This frank tell-all comes only a handful of months after Lamar checked himself into rehab in order to “work on his mental and physical health for the next chapter of his life.” And it seems as though Mr. Odom is now ready to rehabilitate his image.
On what he recalls from his health scare at the Love Ranch, the American athlete revealed:
“I was home by myself. Bored. I wanted to get out and have a good time. Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all. I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That’s all. When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth.”
Intense stuff. In case you forgot, the 37-year-old was found unconscious at the famed Nevada brothel back in October 2015. After being rushed to the hospital, KoKo’s ex was put on life support after suffering from 12 strokes and two heart attacks and undergoing a coma.
Although Odom claims he was not high or drunk at the time of his medical emergency, he admits he had abused drugs while married to the reality TV star. In regards to whether or not the KUWTK starlet knew about his drug usage, Lamar explained:
“I was hiding it for a while, but then I got frustrated and was like, fuck it. Around two years before we split up [in 2011], I was in the man cave she had made for me and she caught me. She was disappointed. So was I. The sad thing about it is, I don’t know if I was disappointed because I was actually doing the drug or because she caught me. She knew I was doing cocaine the whole time after that. It was my drug of choice. I’m not going to say she accepted it because that would be the wrong word. Tolerated would be a better word.”
Huh. There were definitely a lot of things wrong with Khlo├â┬⌐ and Lamar’s marriage, but what the NY native regrets the most is cheating on the 32-year-old. He continued:
“When I became Khlo├â┬⌐ Kardash├é┬¡ian’s man and on TV, it made me look more enticing. People who didn’t even know basketball would approach me because they knew Lammy. Bitches and THOTs came out of the woodwork. If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my dick in my pants.”
Eventually, Miz Kardashian couldn’t put up with Lamar’s antics any longer as she filed for divorce. Sadly, Khlo├â┬⌐’s decision to leave sent Odom into quite the downward spiral. The former Los Angeles Lakers player revealed:
“That’s where me and my friend Jamie [Sangouthai], God bless the dead, turned the drug use up to another level. The ‘don’t give a fuck’ place. I was in a very dark place and very confrontational. I wasn’t trying to repair my marriage; I was just trying to get high. My life was all about drugs at that point. It probably helped the end of my career come along a little faster because drugs killed my drive to want to train and be in shape. It killed that and my sex drive. The only time you can fuck is when you take coke.”
Oof. Nonetheless, Kardashian flew to be Lamar’s side when he hit rock bottom in Nevada.
On waking up and discovering Khlo├â┬⌐ by his side at the hospital, Lamar shared:
“She was the first thing I saw. She said, ‘Hi, Mookah.’ ‘Mookah’ is a name my mother used to call me. She said it to let me know I wasn’t dead. She played a major role in me getting my memory back. She would bring pictures of my mother and my grandmother. I kept thinking, Am I paralyzed forever? Am I mute forever? It was scary shit. Faith got me through… Honestly, at that time I was just blessed to be around her. I wasn’t making any more out of it than that. We haven’t been intimate in years.”
That experience must’ve been traumatic for everyone involved. Thankfully, Lamar says he is now “living sober.”
Hopefully, this interview is a sign of better things to come for the basketball champ. Fingers crossed!
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