The 30-year-old singer allowed herself to be vulnerable in the emotional piece opening up about being an “outcast” ever since she was young — but it was the cruel opinions of others, combined with anxiety and depression, that led to the TiK ToK artist’s eating disorder.
“When I think about the kind of bullying I dealt with as a child and teen, it seems almost quaint compared with what goes on today. The amount of body-shaming and baseless slut-shaming online makes me sick. I know from personal experience how comments can mess up somebody’s self-confidence and sense of self-worth. I have felt so unlovable after reading cruel words written by strangers who don’t know a thing about me.”
Of her personal experience with the disease, the Nashville native said:
“It became a vicious cycle: When I compared myself to others, I would read more mean comments, which only fed my anxiety and depression. Seeing paparazzi photos of myself and the accompanying catty commentary fueled my eating disorder. The sick irony was that when I was at some of the lowest points in my life, I kept hearing how much better I looked. I knew I was destroying my body with my eating disorder, but the message I was getting was that I was doing great.”
Fortunately, Kesha has been able to overcome her mental health issues and find happiness over the past several years:
“In the past couple of years I’ve grown up a lot. I’ve realized that once you take the step to help yourself, you’re going to be so happy you did. Taking the time to work on yourself requires bravery. Trying to change your life based on other people’s thoughts can drive you crazy. You have to figure out what makes you feel good and what keeps you in a positive head space.”
For her, that meant disconnecting from social media:
“This is one reason why I’ve changed my relationship with social media. I love it because it’s how I communicate with my fans├óΓé¼ΓÇ¥and nothing means more to me than my fans├óΓé¼ΓÇ¥but too much of it can exacerbate my anxiety and depression. This year I made a pledge to take more breaks from social media and screens and spend more time in nature.”
She concluded the piece by offering a word of encouragement to those who may be facing similar struggles:
“I want to pass along the message to anyone who struggles with an eating disorder, or depression, or anxiety, or anything else, that if you have physical or emotional scars, don’t be ashamed of them, because they are part of you. Remember that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. And that no one can take the magic you make.”
Such a powerful message!
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