Such devastating news…
The 25-year-old MTV star told a producer:
“I feel like maybe it just wasn’t the right time. Thank God for kids and husbands… If they weren’t around, I probably would have offed myself, seriously. I mean, I’m sure a lot of people can relate. Like, it’s like I don’t want to live another day like this, you know?”
The television personality then told husband Tyler Baltierra via phone:
“You’d be super proud of me today. I have, like, the anxiety and I’ve been working through it. I walked outside, I just kept talking to myself, saying, ‘You’re beautiful, you’re smart, you’re strong. You’re beautiful, you’re smart, you’re strong.'”
“That’s good, honey, because you are beautiful and smart and strong. You are. You really are, honey.”
Earlier in the show, the father opened up to producer Kerthy about the moment he heard the sad news.
“We just sat in the bed and cried and just held each other. I mean, there’s nothing you can really do, so it felt very similar to Carly… I mean, Carly’s a little different, because we have to├óΓé¼ΓÇ¥we get to see her every year, but it’s a loss, and you feel it. Like, I feel like you process it as a loss. So I guess it’s something I didn’t really understand before.”
During their 16 & Pregnant days, the couple gave up biological daughter Carly for adoption.
In the heartbreaking episode, Catelynn was also filmed heading to the airport to enter treatment in Arizona. In a conversation with Tyler’s mom Kim, she said:
“I contemplated every single way that I could kill myself today… As of right now, [I’m going] for 30 days.”
According to Baltierra’s tweet early Monday, Catelynn “comes home in 5 days,” adding:
“I can’t wait to hold her in my arms again & just show her without words, what safety, security, & unconditional love feels like.”
We are sending love and positivity to Catelynn and Tyler during this difficult time.
[Image via Catelynn Lowell/Instagram.]