Oh, Hilarie Burton.
Our heart aches, beats, and pumps for you right now.
The 35-year-old actress shared a deeply touching Instagram post on Tuesday, chronicling her and Jeffrey Dean Morgan‘s heartbreaking pregnancy journey.
Following the 2010 birth of their first child, Augustus Morgan, the two actors would soon learn that having another baby proved challenging. While their second little one (a baby girl!) was born on February 16, they experienced deep loss prior to the arrival of their “miracle” baby.
In a post that also serves as their daughter’s introduction to the virtual world, Hilarie courageously opened up about the miscarriages they endured:
As some of you know, @jeffreydeanmorgan is off in Europe getting ready to do some big conventions. And he’s self aware enough to know his track record for “spilling the beans” isn’t so great (bless his heart!). So before he starts tripping up in an attempt to maintain our privacy, he asked that I go ahead and post something about our little girl’s birth. But before I do that, there’s something I really want to say to all the women out there who are trying….. It took a long time for Jeffrey and I to have this baby. The first time I got pregnant, it took a year and a half. I surprised him on Christmas with baby Seahawk booties. We cried. We celebrated. We picked out names. And we lost that baby. More losses followed, and as so many couples know, it was heartbreaking. It still is heartbreaking. And every morning of the five years it took us, I’d open my computer at the kitchen table and see the news and I’d grow bitter over the endless parade of celebrities showing off their bumps and babies. I’d weep out of jealousy for how easy it was for them. Didn’t they know something could go wrong? Didn’t they know that there were other women out there struggling? It pained me to see the corporate sponsored baby showers and magazine covers capitalizing on this human miracle that wasn’t happening for us. So when this pregnancy started, we were cautious. I didn’t want to celebrate for fear of jinxing it. I didn’t want a baby shower. I checked her heartbeat every day, up until the day she was born. And now that she is here, I just stare at her in wonder all day. I see her in her daddy’s arms and I don’t take any of it for granted. She screams bloody murder and I smile because she is so wildly alive. So now that folks know she’s here, I don’t want her birth to cause any other woman to weep at her kitchen table. If anything, my wish is that she would restore hope for others. Fertility is a fickle thing. And for the other couples out there who have had dark days, we want to introduce our miracle baby to you and send you our love and support in finding yours. Please meet George Virginia Morgan. She was born February 16th. Her daddy delivered her. We love her very much.A post shared by Hilarie Burton (@hilarieburton) on Mar 6, 2018 at 10:13am PST
We mourn for your loss, Hilarie.
And we celebrate your miracle! Welcome to a world of possibility, George Virginia Morgan! We’re so happy you’re here.
[Image via Adriana M. Barraza/WENN.]