Ariana Grande is still dealing with the emotional aftermath of the Machester bombing one year later.
It seems like just yesterday we were hearing news that a terrorist detonated a bomb after the 24-year-old singer’s concert, killing 22 people and injuring over 500 others.
Covering TIME‘s latest issue, the Side To Side songstress opened up about that terribly devastating experience and what it took for her to get back on stage.
She shared while sobbing:
“I’m happy. I’m crying, but I’m happy … There are so many people who have suffered such loss and pain. The processing part is going to take forever.”
Understandably, though, Ari doesn’t like to discuss the bombing:
“I don’t want to give it that much power, something so negative. It’s the absolute worst of humanity. That’s why I did my best to react the way I did. The last thing I would ever want is for my fans to see something like that happen and think it won.”
She went on:
“Music is supposed to be the safest thing in the world. I think that’s why it’s still so heavy on my heart every single day. I wish there was more that I could fix. You think with time it’ll become easier to talk about. Or you’ll make peace with it. But every day I wait for that peace to come, and it’s still very painful.”
The celeb credits her new music and newfound creative expression to spending more time with her feelings:
“I felt more inclined to tap into my feelings because I was spending more time with them. I was talking about them more. I was in therapy more.”
Speaking on struggling with anxiety in the past, she said while not elaborating on what makes her feel anxious:
“I never opened up about it, because I thought that was how life was supposed to feel.”
What a strong woman. We are so proud of her.
Ch-ch-check out the full feature HERE and the cover from the shoot (below)!!
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