After being hospitalized for an overdose of aspirin and sleep medication, Fantasia Barrino admits that she intended to commit suicide.
The singer said:
“I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out. At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ all of it, all of that [expletive].
I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”
It was her manager, Brian Dickens, that found her in the room.
He added:
“Her emotions were extremely low. She’d been crying all day. Fantasia was just numb. Fantasia texted me, saying ‘I love you.’ I wrote back, ‘I love you more.’ Then it hit me.
I wrote, ‘You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.’ And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, ‘Already did.’ I went into Fantasia’s room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped.”
So sad.
But the drama with her married beau, Antwaun Cook, became to much for her.
Fantasia continued:
“I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ I was tired. My head was hurting me. I was over it.
When I met him, he was separated … wasn’t living in his home. He didn’t want to be back with his wife ├óΓé¼ΓÇ£ that is what I was told. I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking], ‘It didn’t work, I’m still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.’
My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear. She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’
I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment [snaps her fingers] of just breaking or feeling like I can’t, I can’t go on, it’s too heavy. That was somewhere I don’t ever want to go again.”
We’re glad she made it through. Stay strong, bb.
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