Justin & Hailey Bieber Open Up About Their ‘Very Hard’ Marriage, Remaining Celibate Before Tying The Knot, & More In ‘Vogue’ Cover Issue!

Vogue‘s March cover stars might come as a surprise, but here Justin Bieber and Hailey Bieber are flaunting their love on the new issue.

Inside the glossy, it’s another story.

For their first joint interview together — and the musician’s first lengthy interview in more than two years — the couple have decided to get real about marriage since they tied the knot in a courthouse in September. There are trust issues, counseling, but also a reminder that they can still “enjoy their adolescence.”

Related: Hailey ‘Can’t Wait’ To Have A Baby With Justin!

The model explained:

“The thing is, marriage is very hard. That is the sentence you should lead with. It’s really effing hard.”

Still, the 22-year-old shared that she and the singer are putting in the work, fully aware of how young they are:

“It’s just that I’m fighting to do this the right way, to build a healthy relationship. I want people to know that. We’re coming from a really genuine place. But we’re two young people who are learning as we go. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say it’s all a magical fantasy. It’s always going to be hard. It’s a choice. You don’t feel it every single day. You don’t wake up every day saying, ‘I’m absolutely so in love and you are perfect.’ That’s not what being married is. But there’s something beautiful about it anyway — about wanting to fight for something, committing to building with someone.”

Getting married wasn’t something she jumped into, either. Giving it careful consideration, Hailey admitted:

“I prayed to feel peace about the decision and that’s where I landed. I love him very much. I have loved him for a long time. We’re committed to growing together and supporting each other in those changes. That’s how I look at it. At the end of the day, too, he’s my best friend. I never get sick of him.”

It clearly hasn’t been easy for the newlyweds, who are still planning to have a wedding ceremony, as Justin divulged his own issues:

“It’s been so hard for me to trust people. I’ve struggled with the feeling that people are using me or aren’t really there for me, and that writers are looking to get something out of me and then use it against me. One of the big things for me is trusting myself. I’ve made some bad decisions personally, and in relationships. Those mistakes have affected my confidence in my judgment. It’s been difficult for me even to trust Hailey. We’ve been working through stuff. And it’s great, right?”

As you know, Mr. and Mrs. Bieber briefly dated about three years ago, though things really fell apart, with them suggesting, or maybe even implying, there was a betrayal. Stephen Baldwin‘s daughter expressed:

“Negative things happened that we still need to talk about and work through. Fizzled would not be the right word — it was more like a very dramatic excommunication. There was a period where if I walked into a room, he would walk out.”

But when they reconnected this past June at a Miami conference hosted by Rich Wilkerson Jr., she continued:

“The common denominator, I promise you, is always church. By then we were past the drama. I just gave him a hug. By the end of the conference, he was like, ‘We’re not going to be friends.’ I was like, ‘We’re not?'”

Not even a month later, the Canadian had proposed.

Justin explained:

“I’m the emotionally unstable one. I struggle with finding peace. I just feel like I care so much and I want things to be so good and I want people to like me. Hailey’s very logical and structured, which I need. I’ve always wanted security—with my dad being gone sometimes when I was a kid, with being on the road. With the lifestyle I live, everything is so uncertain. I need one thing that’s certain. And that is my baby boo.”

Revealing he was celibate when he and his now-wife rekindled their relationship because of “a legitimate problem with sex,” an addiction, the Purpose singer confessed:

“Sometimes people have sex because they don’t feel good enough. Because they lack self-worth. Women do that, and guys do that. I wanted to rededicate myself to God in that way because I really felt it was better for the condition of my soul. And I believe that God blessed me with Hailey as a result. There are perks. You get rewarded for good behavior.”

So, there goes those pregnancy rumors!

But it wasn’t just a desire to have sex that had them rushing to make their marriage official, but as Justin says:

“When I saw her last June, I just forgot how much I loved her and how much I missed her and how much of a positive impact she made on my life. I was like, Holy cow, this is what I’ve been looking for.”

Bieber also reveals he was celibate when he reconnected with Baldwin and admits that the desire to have sex was a factor in them getting married, but it wasn’t the only reason. “When I saw her last June, I just forgot how much I loved her and how much I missed her and how much of a positive impact she made on my life,” he recalls. “I was like, ‘Holy cow, this is what I’ve been looking for.'”

They’ve come a long way since their first meeting ten years ago, with Hailey recalling:

“I was never a superfan, of him or of anyone. It was never that crazed, screaming thing. I didn’t think about it in any kind of way except for the fact that he was cute. Everybody had a crush on him. But for the first few years we had a weird age gap.”

It wasn’t until a few years later when they bumped into each other again that they built a relationship, but just as friends:

“One day Justin walked into Hillsong and was like, ‘Hey, you got older.’ I was like, ‘Yeah, what’s up?’ Over time he became my best guy friend. I was running around with him as his homie, but we weren’t hanging out [romantically].”

Look at them now!

It’s hard not to appreciate the couple for opening up so much about their honest relationship with each other…

Even if there was surprisingly no mention of Selena Gomez, the ex Bieber also reconnected with prior to dating Hailey again.

But there’s been more to Justin’s journey than that.

Talking about canceling the last dates of his Purpose tour a couple years ago, the 24-year-old revealed:

“I got really depressed on tour. I haven’t talked about this, and I’m still processing so much stuff that I haven’t talked about. I was lonely. I needed some time.”

Even now, his relationship with music still feels off:

“Just thinking about music stresses me out. I’ve been successful since I was thirteen, so I didn’t really have a chance to find who I was apart from what I did. I just needed some time to evaluate myself: who I am, what I want out of my life, my relationships, who I want to be—stuff that when you’re so immersed in the music business you kind of lose sight of.”

Recalling the change over the course of the years, Bieber recalled:

“I was real at first and then I was manufactured as, slowly, they just took more and more control. I started really feeling myself too much. People love me, I’m the shit—that’s honestly what I thought. I got very arrogant and cocky. I was wearing sunglasses inside.”

He continued about his “douchey” behavior:

“A lot of the douchey things I was doing gave people the right to be like, ‘Man, that’s frickin’ douchey, bro.’ But a lot of the stuff was like—me peeing in a bucket, people made such a big deal of that. Or me owning a monkey. It’s like, if you had the money that I had, why wouldn’t you get a monkey? You would get a monkey! I found myself doing things that I was so ashamed of, being super-promiscuous and stuff, and I think I used Xanax because I was so ashamed. My mom always said to treat women with respect. For me that was always in my head while I was doing it, so I could never enjoy it. Drugs put a screen between me and what I was doing. It got pretty dark. I think there were times when my security was coming in late at night to check my pulse and see if I was still breathing.”

Wow. The star really has come so far, and it sounds like his being with his fellow Vogue cover star, has helped him get to the place where he is today.

We hope the couple can continue to put their relationship first!!

Take a look at their cover and spread (below)! Plus, be sure to let us know what you think of their joint interview in the comments.

[Image via Will Alexander/WENN.]

Feb 7, 2019 7:42am PDT