Ahead of the release of her new memoir, Demi Moore is opening up like never before!
In a New York Times profile, the 56-year-old is taking her guard down and sharing new details of her marriage with Ashton Kutcher, their miscarriage, struggling with addiction, and more.
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The mother of three looks back on her eight year relationship with the No Strings Attached actor as:
“a do-over, like I could just go back in time and experience what it was like to be young, with him — much more so than I’d ever been able to experience it when I was actually in my twenties.”
The St. Elmo’s Fire star also revealed she suffered a miscarriage about six months into pregnancy early in their relationship, and the couple had planned to name their daughter Chaplin Ray.
After the miscarriage, the Golden Globe nominee blamed herself and began to rely on alcohol, but later pursued fertility treatments after tying the knot in 2005. However, Moore alleges Ashton cheated on her in their relationship, and she began drinking heavily and using Vicodin to cope.
Without going into too many details in the profile, it’s alluded she began to experience digestive and autoimmune problems following the split, adding “the root was a major heavy viral load”:
“Something was going on, including my organs slowly shutting down.”
Bruce Willis‘ ex will go into detail of additional personal traumas in the memoir, including being raped at 15, and suffering a seizure in 2012 after smoking synthetic cannabis and inhaling nitrous oxide at a party with daughter Rumer Willis.
Luckily, she has since recovered physically and emotionally from many of these difficult times, completing a rehab program for codependency, trauma, and substance abuse, and worked with an integrative medicine doctor for her physical health issues. Once she began to feel more like herself, she began co-writing Inside Out in partnership with The New Yorker staff writer and memoirist Ariel Levy.
Moore insists she’s not looking to shame her exes or air any dirty laundry with her September 24 memoir release, but simply tell her own story:
“It’s exciting, and yet I feel very vulnerable. There is no cover of a character. It’s not somebody else’s interpretation of me. I’m definitely not interested in blaming anyone, it’s a waste of energy.”
We applaud you for being so vulnerable, Demi!
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