If there’s a rock bottom, Bam Margera has hit it.
The Jackass alum’s interview with Dr. Phil McGraw has aired more than a month after he begged the daytime TV host for professional help. During the emotional sit down, Bam opened up about the “mental breakdown” he suffered weeks before going to rehab — and how his son, Phoenix, prevented him from ending his life.
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On Monday’s Dr. Phil, the 39-year-old said of his 1-year-old son:
“He is the raddest kid ever. He’s so interested in skateboarding. I have all these toys everywhere and he just goes right to the skateboard. He’s like my best friend and I’ve known him for not even two years. He’s perfect.”
He continued, as he wiped away tears:
“I can’t even put into words. Like, I would dive into any train or anything and get stabbed or shot or whatever just to make sure he didn’t.”
When pressed by the 69-year-old host if he would “live” for his son, the former MTV star said:
“Well, that’s the thing. I had such a mental breakdown that I really thought like I … could just go to the lake and be free. I was like the pain was gone and I had to beg for pain back. I was like, ‘Please just give me back my pain so I could stay because I want to be with him.’”
Bam went on to deny he was at the lake that day to kill himself, adding:
“I knew that it was like my judgment day… Whatever breaking point there is to a person, I’ve reached it.”
The “nervous breakdown” allegedly occurred one week before Margera filmed the episode on August 5. Elsewhere during the chat, the former skateboarder revealed he’s felt drained from his relationships with his mother, April, and wife, Nicole, with whom he shares Phoenix.
As for what triggered the breakdown, Bam said:
“It was just everything all at once. It was Nikki and her stubbornness not listening and I’m trying to get away from her and she keeps coming and talking at me and yelling at me and, ‘I just need a minute. Please. Please!’ … If I ever go crazy, it’s because of [Nikki and April].”
The Viva La Bam alum insisted he was “so frustrated” by this situation, he likely would’ve killed himself if he didn’t see his son, “not because I wanted to. It’s ’cause the option of … I can go now if I want. You’ve done enough.”
As we reported, the father-of-one was readmitted to a rehab facility in mid-August just hours after his arrest at a hotel bar in Los Angeles. This came just a week after Bam begged McGraw for help in a series of distressing and expletive-filled videos on Instagram.
Bam’s wife was also invited onto the episode during his Dr. Phil appearance, where she said of her hubby:
“I’m not going to apologize for caring about you. He was upset because, you know, I’ll ask him certain questions or I’ll bring certain things up in concern and he doesn’t like that very much.”
Margera elaborated on this aspect of their relationship, telling Dr. Phil:
“[Nikki] either thinks I’m on too many of my Aderols, so she looks at my eyes … she’s like an FBI agent and a detective, or she thinks that I somehow, some way track down Meth. I didn’t sign up to date a detective. It’s like when I told her, ‘Don’t text me, don’t call me,’ you broke the rule. Bing. ‘What rule?’ You come barging in … You don’t listen. You don’t follow rules! I don’t want to see you, talk to you or anything you. I want you to leave me alone.”
Dr. Phil, for his part, was quick to call the communication Bam was having with his wife “purely abusive,” telling Nikki she “should not put up with that at all” and suggesting Bam apologize “for yelling and screaming at her and intimidating her.”
As for his strained relationship with his mother, Bam said:
“Something happened to where everything just escalated into like my mom’s big problem with the castle was I threw paint everywhere. Like, in the kitchen all different colors everywhere. it looked cool for a picture like for a magazine, but living status, it looked like a North Philly crack house. When I moved to Estonia for two years, she’s just like, ‘I’m just going to make this place like Martha Stewart-worthy.’ I’m like, ‘Have at it.’ So now I come back and I’m like, ‘Wow, I really like what you did with the place.’ So now, if anybody comes in now, she doesn’t want anybody sitting anywhere or doing anything. So I’m like, ‘Hold up, is this your house or mine? Because last time I checked, I bought it and then it’s mine.’”
This domestic drama caused the reality star to be “so overwhelmed,” he was prepared to end his life. Fortunately, he saw Phoenix first.
During her appearance on the show, April explained she simply wanted to renovate Bam’s castle house so they could “put it up for Airbnb,” but her son “didn’t want anyone to stay there” except his friends. She added:
“I don’t know what he’s on and I don’t know why he’s acting so crazy.”
Margera denied doing drugs at the time of filming, but told Dr. Phil he had “one glass of champagne” and takes “two 10 milligram adderalls” daily, in addition to other pills doctors have prescribed to him — but he has apparently since stopped taking.
Hopefully, Bam’s most recent stint in rehab will help him with these issues. It sounds like more than anything, he needs someone to listen to him.
Ch-ch-check out clips from his Dr. Phil episode (below).
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