Jen Hamilton is still in the dark about all the details of her estranged husband’s “double life.”
As you know, the influencer announced in June that she separated from Brian Hamilton after 15 years together. She later claimed the reason they are no longer together is that she found out he cheated on her with a 56-year-old woman. Awful. Brian has not shared his side of the story, but it turns out Jen doesn’t even know the full details herself yet.
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While reflecting on her past insecurities in a video posted to social media on Wednesday, the nurse said:
“Me, now? Me, big, strong girl. Okay? Me, independent girl. Me, ‘don’t need no man’ girl. Me, ‘get out of bad relationship’ girl. But I feel like I need to get out ahead of something. If anything comes out about other things this guy’s done in my marriage, just listen. Me, now? Me, big, strong girl. Me, independent girl. Me, back then? Me, insecure girl. Me, desperate girl.”
Jen stressed that there are things about Brian’s “double life” that she has no clue about. And listen, she may not ever want to know more because what she already knows has her mortified:
“I needed me, now, back then. The thing is, I know some stuff, but, girl, I guarantee you I don’t know everything. And the stuff I do know, I’m embarrassed about.”
Wanting to help anyone who feels “desperate” and “insecure” like she did in the past, Jen offered up some advice:
“You can borrow some of my not scaredness. I needed me, now, then, because baby, it does not get better. Do you hear me? It does not get better. It gets sneakier. I wish to God that I could say I was strong enough to leave at the first situation. Nah.”
At the same time, Jen has no regrets. She explained:
“But, looking back, I don’t regret loving him as much as I did. Because I love really hard and I don’t want that to change about me. I don’t regret seeing the best in him because I try to see the best in everybody. But, for me, it had to be this bad. It had to be this bad because I love that man so much. I still in a million years never ever thought that he would do what he did for as long as he did. But I don’t want it to change who I am. And I still, even after everything, I want the best for him because him being not that way helps everybody. So if you see him, encourage him. Be a good dad. Be better. Be a big truth boy and not big lie boy. Me a big strong girl now. Me no strong girl back then, okay? So if that’s you, that’s okay. You can borrow some of my not scaredness.”
To prove she wants nothing but the best for Brian, Jen also shared a text exchange between them. She wrote:
“I truly hope you take advantage of every resource that has been given to you. I will always love you. And that’s the part that hurts worst of all.”
To which he replied:
“Thank you for being you. Losing you is the dumbest thing I’ve ever done.”
“I don’t want to leave you in rubble. I want all of you guys to be in my life.”
Well oh well for him. His alleged actions already caused that rubble, as Jen fired back:
“You already have.”
Oof. Let’s hope there isn’t actually anything else Jen needs to find out! She’s been through enough as it is! Watch Jen’s entire video (below):
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[Image via Jen Hamilton/Instagram]