In a recent interview for VH1’s Behind The Music tv series, Mary J. Blige opened up about hitting rock bottom while addicted to drugs and alcohol.
She recalls:
“I remember going down the wrong way on the FDR Drive (in New York)… I didn’t realize this is how messed up we were. (I was) driving this way, the traffic’s coming this way. I remember crashing my car into a wall, spinned out, and my girlfriend was on the other side just screaming.
I really didn’t care about myself; I was borderline suicidal… I was like the walking dead; just smoking and drinking and hanging. I was subliminally just trying to get outta here. I was trying to drink the problems away and I remember having Seagram’s gin sponsor our tour – and I was drinking every single day.
I don’t know what death feels like but I felt like my spirit was trying to leave my body. I remember saying a prayer: ‘Send me someone to help me’.”
Luckily for her (and us), producer Kendu Isaacs called Mary to let her know that he thought she wasting her life and her talent.
His conversation with her seem to really hit a nerve because she said:
“I cared so much about him. I didn’t want to just be this alcoholic burden on him… I took responsibility and I cleaned up as much as I could.”
And we are so grateful that you did, Mary. So many wonderfully talented and creative people have left us too soon due to drugs and alcohol. Thankfully, you took the first step in getting help.
[Image via WENN.]
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