Lily Allen's Remorse

English trainwreck Lily Allen has taken to her blog to express what we read as guilt and shame for her deplorable behavior at the GQ awards earlier in the week.

She should be feeling like crap for getting wasted on stage (when she was hired to be a presenter) and telling her co-host, rock icon Sir Elton John, to eff off during a presentation!

Lils described her emotional state as ‘dying inside’ and also wrote that she ‘feels like killing’ herself, although this statement was later removed.

In an earlier post, the spoiled celebrity spawn wrote, ‘Was he upset? I’m worried now, was I mean?’

We assume she was wondering about Sir Elton!

Says Allen:

i , now it’s all died down i’m saying my side of what I can’t believe is considered to be a story.
Elton john and I are friends. I was honoured when Elton asked me to present the GQ awards with him this year in association with Elton’s AIDS foundation. Not only was it for a good cause but who would say no to Elton.
I’m not defending my drunkeness because i don’t need to, i’m 23 it was an awards ceremony i drank the free champagne, how awful of me.
Trying to create a feud on the other hand, and trying to make me out as being some rude little girl with a drink problem is just unfair, Elton and I exchanged jokes and there were no hard feelings at all, infact neither of us gave it a second thought. It’s sad that an evening enjoyed by all had to ruined by some bitter journos again.
Alfie and Jamie had never been engaged, Jamie and I are the best of friends and I was just winding Alfie up , he’s my little brother and that’s what siblings do. Jamie wasn’t pissed off with me, if she was i would have known about it, believe me.
This isn’t meant to be a place for me to respond to journalists, but I am very grateful I have this page, if i didn’t then i would have absolutely no voice when it comes to this stuff.
All these showbiz journalists are just bullies when it comes down to it. I have felt really very bullied this week.I realise that when i first started this job I slagged a few people off when I probably shouldn’t have and I have been opinionated about some things, but i haven’t said a bad word about anyone for a long time, even when I have wanted to, even when people have tried to start feuds and said horrible things about me when they’d never even met me, when they’d based an opinion on me because of something they’d read. It’s hurtful, but it’s fine if you want to print a picture of me and say how awful I look, how much weight i’ve put on or how terrible my choice of clothes were that day. In my opinion it’s still a form of bullying and if anyone spoke to any of my friends like that to their faces i’d want to kill them. But character assasination is another thing it’s just not needed.

I turned up and presented an awards ceremony for charity, i drank some champagne and went home for 12.30 and again I’ve been made to feel like a bad friend and an embarassment to my fans and the people who support me. I shouldn’t have to defend myself when i’ve done nothing wrong.
And by the way, to all the photographers waiting outside my house. I won’t be leaving for a while, all my friends have gone to Bestival and i’ve got enough food and fags to last me till wednesday, so you might as well fuck off and find somebody else to make miserable.

Looks like Lily’s going to be laying low for a while. She failed to show up at Mark Ronson’s birthday bash on Thursday night. She also said that she’s not attending this weekend’s Bestival festival.

Yeah, we think she’s doing the right thing.

Girl needs to get her shiz together!

[Image via WENN.]