Jana Kramer continues to endure the ups and downs of her husband Mike Caussin‘s sex addiction recovery.
On Sunday’s episode of their Whine Down podcast, the One Tree Hill alum nearly stopped recording after they finished their interview with actress Catherine Oxenberg — whose daughter, India, was involved in the sex cult NXIVM.
While the interview went fine, the aftermath got… messy.
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The country songstress almost walked off as she told the producers:
“I really don’t want to be here right now.”
It was Mike who then revealed the couple’s latest conflict — a woman he did not know sent him a topless photo the day before!
Though the former NFL star deleted the text as he did not want to upset his wife, she later found the vulgar snap on his Apple Watch. And since he hadn’t told her about it, it looked even worse for him!
While referencing his past cheating scandal, the I Got The Boy singer dished:
“I saw it, and… my heart just fell. I was like, it’s here. It’s happened again. I’m such a f**king idiot… Like, how is this happening again?…
I don’t want to live this kind of life. We just moved into this beautiful house, and we had our second kid, and we fought so hard. Why is this happening again?”
So hard to hear…
The 35-year-old also brought up her husband’s sex addiction relapse, which she previously discussed in a March podcast episode.
(In the episode, the football player said he went to a sex addiction treatment facility three years ago for 60 days, and just celebrated the one-year mark of his sobriety.)
She said:
“Whether he ends up meeting with someone or not… That last relapse, he almost did, and I was going to sign the papers… So it’s like, he gets even close to the fire, and I’m gone. I’m like, does he not know that and realize that and love our family enough?”
Though she loves the athlete, she cannot stand him being a “good liar,” elaborating:
“Like, you passed the lie detector test, you know what I mean?… I’ve seen you look me in the eye and tell me what your truth was, but it wasn’t your truth… So I’m kinda caught in this weird, like, what do I believe? Was it just a fluke? I don’t know… So I’m like, do I keep asking for signs, or are these my signs to f**king get out of Dodge? Sorry, this is just really fresh.”
Overall, Caussin admits he was wrong to delete the text as it “hurt and upset” his spouse.
“I understand and I truly am empathetic to the fact that her seeing something that was deleting that wasn’t brought to her attention by me in a healthy way is extremely triggering… And yeah, it’s a boundary to not delete things, something we have mutually discussed and agreed on… It’s just one of those things that’s just difficult to navigate. It’s beyond hurtful to see Jana hurt and upset and feel things that she feels because of the things I’ve done in the past.”
Despite this apology of sorts, Kramer ended the recording, saying:
“I’m not ready to look at him yet, because I don’t know what I’m looking at.”
Damn.
The next day on Instagram, Jana revealed she thought about texting the producer to “make up some excuse” to not tape. Even after the episode was finished, the pair thought about pulling it “because it was that heavy for us.”
In the end, she revealed “today we are good, and have grown stronger from” the drama.
Read her full note (below):
“Today is a tough one. Our podcast episode that aired this morning was one we almost didn’t let air at all. Up until a day ago mike and I wanted to pull the episode completely and just not have an episode for today because it was that heavy for us. Honestly the day we recorded I wanted nothing to do with “work”. I wanted to text our producer and make up some excuse why we couldn’t record.
The thing though is because Mike and I work together the show must go on and I realize we can’t just cancel things because we are in a bad spot. So instead I put my big girl pants on and started to record with mike after a very long and intense 24hours of not talking to each other. In the beginning of the ep I truly tried to put the acting chops on and play cool but it’s evident as the episode went on that didn’t happen. We decided to open the door into what happened and woah did we let it all out.
Those of you may not understand the trauma and the pain around what we talked about and openly shared so please be nice and know we ended up keeping the episode because we hope it can help. See that’s the thing. None of this has been easy with our shares but we just hope along the way we are able to help others out there not feel so alone.
Reality is no matter what you’ve been through marriage can be a difficult walk especially with added triggers and pain…but know this, ur not alone in that walk and we are here rooting y’all on. Be kind to us as honestly we are embarrassed by how fresh and raw this episode was.”
She ended on a positive note, saying the couple are “good” for now:
“Also. Because the podcast didn’t end great…today we are good, and have grown stronger from it. See that’s the thing, if you’re both willing to fight you can get stronger on the other side. Love y’all and really appreciate the support. #bekindpls”
Whew. What do YOU make of all this, Perezcious readers??
Is Jana making too much of it? Or not enough??
[Image via Jana Kramer/Instagram.]
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