Camila Cabello might have had us distracted with her rumored Shawn Mendes romance, but now the songstress is getting real by opening up about her personal struggles with anxiety.
On Sunday, the 22-year-old penned two lengthy Instagram captions about her progress of learning to cope with being “incredibly nervous” and “socially anxious” from a young age.
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Longtime fans will recall the Señorita collaborator has opened up in the past about her mental health, divulging her mother is largely to thank with the battles she has overcome.
The starlet opened up on IG, looking back at her childhood (below):
“I remember growing up hearing stories of the singers I loved, all the stories sounded the same, kids who would grow up performing for their families and putting on talent shows for their parents when they were little who grew up to be dazzling to me. I was the opposite, I never ever sang in front of my parents or friends and would get flustered when they would ask me to, I sang in my room when my parents left for Walmart and cried when one day I saw them filming me through the crack of the door, I got teary eyed when people sang happy birthday to me because people looking at me actually made me overwhelmed.”
Cabello continued, sharing she often feels like there are “two Camila’s in” her, and how she has had to find a balance between them over the years:
“I was generally incredibly nervous and socially anxious when I was little; and people always have this look of disbelief when I tell them that. I did an interview the other day where I got it again, the interviewer said something along the lines of ‘So… how’d you end up here?’ The answer is, I feel like my whole life there’s been two Camila’s in me. There’s little Camila that is terrified of the unknown, is aware of all the ways everything can go wrong, (actually can picture them vividly lol), and thinks it’s safer to stay home than to play ball. Then there’s the other Camila. And she knows what she wants out of life, is aware of how little time I have to let little Camila run the show while time passes by, and grabs young me by the hand and forces her out the door saying ‘Let’s go. You’ll survive, and I’m not gonna miss out on this. Let’s go.'”
Sounds like she’s overcome so much in her life already!!
The Havana singer concluded the post (below):
“And that is literally how I can sum up how I’ve gotten to this point in my life. (I’m talking about as a person, not success.) remember feeling discouraged when I felt like some people were just ‘born’ to do things. That they always had it in them. “They were always this outgoing, they always loved to entertain, they were always this bold, they were always this outspoken.’ (…..continue)”
In a second photo and caption posted to the ‘gram, the former Fifth Harmony member continued her thoughts:
“(part 2..) The truth is you decide who you’re going to be. Every day. I’m not talking about talent or success. I just mean the type of person you’re going to be. If you haven’t been very brave, or very social, or wild, or an adventure seeker, if you describe yourself as the opposite of those things… it doesn’t mean you can’t be. The other you needs to grab little you by the hand, yank you by the hairs and tell you, ‘Let’s go.’ Little me hasn’t left. I just don’t let her boss me around as much.”
Cabello wrapped up, explaining why she chose to share these words with her followers:
“I felt like sharing because I think sometimes we see other people do things and think ‘Ah, well.. that’s just not me. I’ve never been like that.’ It’s NOT TRUE. I’m telling you. I went from never wanting to sing in front of my family to being addicted to performing, from being too anxious to hang out with new people to… still being a little anxious but having THE BEST time and making irreplaceable memories. The essence of me is the same, but i’ve changed so much as a person. You choose who you’re going to be. Force yourself to do what you’re afraid of, always- and go after what you want and who you want to be, because you’re worth that. You’re worth the fight. It’s the most worthwhile one there is. Love you ❤️”
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Wow! Thank U for sharing, Camila!!
See both her posts in full (below):
https://www.instagram.com/p/B0L9HecH_zl/
https://www.instagram.com/p/B0L93G4nU9j/
[Image via Pat Denton/WENN.]
