It seems there are some wounds that just don’t heal with time.
At least that’s the case for members of One Direction according to Liam Payne, who spoke about his boy band past with GQ Hype.
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When asked if there are still grudges between himself, Zayn Malik, Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles, and Niall Horan, he responded:
“Definitely in some part, yeah. We had our differences throughout the whole experience with some things. I still think about some stuff that was said and done that now I would do differently, but then that’s all part of growing up. Being in One Direction was such a schoolyard mentality somehow–the One Direction University, I call it. Everyone has stuff they’ve said at parties they wished they hadn’t but, for us, the difference was that it was all happening in front of the world. Now we are older, for me certainly there are things that I am just not as bothered about. I think with Zayn’s particular exit and the way he chose to go, we haven’t really heard from him since he left. He didn’t even say goodbye, if I am being honest. It was a really sordid scenario, from our side certainly. A bit strange. It’s difficult.”
Sad!!
Directioners will recall Malik initially left the group in early 2015, with the rest parting ways to “work on individual projects” later that year. Unfortunately, it seems a lot which went unsaid when it came to the Entertainer singer:
“I think for anybody entering into these talent shows we do them for specific reasons. And I’ve often asked myself this question a bunch of times because we all went through it. You know, for me, as I was younger, from my own experience, I entered the show [The X Factor] because I wanted to make my dad proud. Fast forward ten years and here we are in his office, talking about an album and an underwear campaign – incredible. But here’s the thing: you just don’t know until you get there whether you’re built for this or not. For Zayn, he loves music and he’s an amazing talent. He genuinely was the best singer in One Direction, hand on heart, out of all of us. But for him to get to a point where, you know, he can’t step on a stage? It’s a lot. I mean, he’s doing great. His streaming numbers are ridiculous but I do think he misses out on the performance side a bit, you know. He can’t seem to get past that part.”
But Malik isn’t alone in his struggles! The 26-year-old revealed having also dealt with his share of demons over the years:
“We all have it. I mean, I have this, like, brain fart syndrome: I was on medication for a while, and it was something to do with epilepsy, but I was using it for something else. And it was to do with anxiety for me too, fully prescribed, but I didn’t realise that [on the medication] certain lights made me forget, well, everything. I totally forgot who I was. And lyrics. It still happens. I have a fear of it now. It happens all the time. So we all have our little beasties in that sort of scenario. But this era of talent shows, it is dangerous and some people just don’t know what they are getting into.”
The father of one continued, detailing some of his own bad patch he had to sort through:
“There was a lot of stuff. I was drinking too much and getting into really bad, bad situations for quite some time actually. And I hit a peak moment where I knew the drinking was going to get me; I needed to do something about it. I spent a lot of time drinking to escape the crazy world that I had created for myself. I didn’t know what I was doing. That first therapy session and being like, ‘I don’t even know what I like or anything about myself’–it was pretty scary stuff. I was afraid of how far my career was going and that it might go even further. You can say, ‘Who is afraid of success? But that’s what it entails sometimes. Success has got the better of me on more than one occasion. When I am losing I tend to concentrate more.”
While the Strip That Down singer explained he has wanted to reach out to Zayn in the past four years, he is unsure how to best go about it:
“I did, yeah. I didn’t want him to feel like he was going through this all alone in some ways, or that we were all out to get him. We’re the only people who know what you’re going through. The only five people who know what you are going through were all in a room together once, and you left – fair enough – but you don’t want anyone going through such evils for no reason. But it got to a point with me where I wouldn’t know where to begin with Zayn. I hope he has good people around him, but I don’t at this stage think it’s anything the rest of us can solve.”
Maybe this interview will spark some closure between them!
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