Underneath The Surface

Shanna Moakler just posted the following heart-felt message on her official blog.
It’s one of the rare times we’ve seen her vulnerable, sincere and human.
It’s a good read!
She says:
“Thursday, January 24, 2008
“A woman is like a teabag, only in hot water do you realize how strong she is”
Current mood: betrayed
Im gonna TRY to make this short and sweet….
I am VERY far from where I would like to be in my career, I’m from a small town in the smallest state, I’ve started working as a teen model and lived in every city and beat the streets in every town, taking every audition, I modeled, I did pageants I took every meeting I could, I’ve been rejected 1000 times and I never gave up…I took every one liner, bit part I could, I didn’t have my daddy’s name or some hollywood connection, I worked my ass off, and no I may not be in the A list, but I have drive and conviction and ambition… and I wont ever stop trying to be involved in projects that I enjoy and get the opportunity’s that allow me to show what it is I strive to do…
I grew up watching musicals with talents such as Ann Miller and Fred Astaire and that is the sole reason I moved across the country to this city with the dream to be a part of this industry.
with that said,
never in all my life, if I thought for one second with all that I have done, (and I am actually proud of what I have accomplished), did I ever think having a confrontation with a whore in a club or the complete heartbreaking ups and downs of my marriage which sadly have to play out in front on the public, would take center stage from what it is I actually LOVE doing…
it makes me fucking sick and sad….. that the reality is having a sex tape and letting men piss on you, getting dui’s , flashing your crotch and going to jail is apparently today, the image young men and woman strive for to get their foot in the door… thats not talent and it sure doesn’t deserve fame. I mean thats the message i see everyday in my TV, in my papers, on my radios…
i dont want to be known for any of this!! ill keep my small time reality show and my dignity and keep it moving! my marriage is just not up for entertainment anymore.
and perez hilton…go fuck yourself. i guess making fun of everyone in times of trouble shows exaclty the caliber of your class. but look who you named yourself after. maybe i just dont get the “jokes”. but its a form of entertainment ill pass on.
signing off.
health, wealth and yes all the happiness you can stand!
SHANNAXOXO
Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you’ll be criticized anyway. You’ll be damned if you do and damned if you don’t.
– Eleanor Roosevelt”
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